The thing about giving up but not dying, is that it makes your life hell

[joshe]

It always seems to get worse if i don't act to improve or get myself better.

Either my thoughts spiral and anxiety increases or real life problems that are neglected begin to compound and multiply

Once you lose hope once, it is always an option again in the future

 

[Stavrogin]

It always seems to get worse if i don't act to improve or get myself better.

Yes, there is no middle ground - no standing still; everything is either growing in power, or diminishing.

 

[rhiino]

Yeah, that is true. Even when fighting everything went slowly downhill or stagnated, but as soon as I gave up everything got worse relentlessly.

Edit: Not that your life cannot be hell even without giving up.

 

[joshe]

So i'm back again and still feel the same, i am held back by my years of failed attempts at living and have all these reminders of my past failing continually haunting me, they dont go away, they are the mental ghosts that go bump in the night and i wish to die so i dont have to have them continually killing me and tearing me apart