the rush from planning suicide

[zombiegirl]

sometimes i get so excited to kill myself, the euphoria makes me wanna live a little longer to chase that feeling. but inevitably it ends with me prolonging my existence, and finding reasons to live, even though reality is unbearable to me. guess this is how i know i ain't ready to CTB just yet but i get so impatient

 

[hopelessgirl]

I have the same feeling

 

[higherthanthesun]

I totally understand this