The government won't help because they're often the cause. I ran across my SSI judge and discovered that other people also were suicidal after having been in his courtroom. There are enough sadistic people out there I wouldn't doubt this particular one enjoys reading that sort of thing.
My problems are mainly caused by the government -so why would they fix them? Or care about them?
We were held in place and tormented by Family Court where I wasn't from (I was there for abuse shelter only) and my ex didn't live. No outs for years forced to live in poverty with no way out and constant threats of jail (over things I didn't do wrong - like get the kids 4 hours away in 3 hours right now when it wasn't his time... also he was hurting them and you have to turn your kids over to be hurt regardless. Now they're adults and some people are still trying to shut us up), terrorizing us, and making up expensive dictates (if you have seizures and can't drive, then pay someone to drive them to a train station and sit with them to get there, and do the same all the way back and pay for their trip back... just rediculous things), bad doctors/tests (medicaid will tell you "No one good wants to work for what we pay them, so that's just how life works.." ), bad therapy (Omg the horror stories I witnessed, let alone some of ours- in tiny areas a single mental health place can take over an entire county and the stuff they do to people ), big pharma (which ties in to bad doctors in that they get money to give you certain medications and ignore side effects that are sometimes permanent and sometimes you're a guinea pig), enforced poverty mixed with a corrupt area forced us to live in areas that have so much black mold the local government removed it from the system so they wouldn't have to examine it and you had no rights if you lived in it-combined with Social Security for disability which let's face it are drug pushers because the people who make the laws have stock in these companies, Social Security hearings and the system that backs them (which is absurdly corrupt (not even trying to hide it) at worse and a joke at best - and in my case completely corrupt to the point of absurdity - but there's no way to fight back because the justice system is also corrupt that lawyers have to pay judges "re election campaigns" when no one ever runs against them and they were "placed" by a politician without ever having once been voted on- and ignore their clients on behalf of other clients and cut deals about failing in your case to get ahead in another (no wonder lawyers are one of the most likely to kill themselves - they're surrounded by this 24/7). I even had a family court judge that was ordering a 4 year old (not mine) into a weekly rape situation and when the dad was caught with child porn, still ordered visitation - that kid's now an adult too but it took years and a lot of money to get permission from that judge to move- and that judge was also a Juvenile Justice Judge who was on several boards in the area - one lawyer said that she would actively rule against him because he once embarrassed her by replaying part of a hearing showing she was wrong about something she said. And if you get a corrupt judge nobody's going to fix that (rights are for people who can pay for them unless it's a simple case, you'll be blacklisted just for complaining, and judges are ruled on by their buddies) and if there's medical malpractice no one will touch it either for the same reason, and it'll probably be too late by the time you find out you could technically have done something because no one will give you records and there's a reason they call it "doctoring" as well. ;) But just keeping the info until the statute of limitations is up is enough. Why would people like that care about anyone? And that's just a brief glimpse into our system, there's a whole even worse TLDR worse than this.
In one of the abuse shelters they taught us that abusers gravitate toward certain jobs - government positions, mental health, pastoral positions (the church), etc. Those people will never care about your problems.
The thing that gets me is if they're going to insist we all die slowly on the streets ... if they're trying to kill us off slowly, why not offer us a faster, easier way out? Then we won't clutter their streets with our homelessness first. Why the slow homicide when it doesn't even take caring to get that faster equals better? Or is it that they wouldn't be able to stock up our industry run prisons if they weren't able to at least arrest some of them for loitering or sleeping in public or needing to use a toilet and being barred from all of them? Prison industry needs to make money somehow, right? Each person makes them a nice 50,000 a year and a lot of the jails worked things out so if they're not getting enough people to arrest the state has to pay them (google it). But how about the rest of us? Way too many homeless disabled to jail us all. Let us die faster. This slow death by torture is worse. Give us an out.
