The pressure to just do it

[nextstepdeath]

Do this, do that, you're doing it wrong, that's not the way to do it. All my life. Just do it, just do it just do it. I don't know what it is with me. Do things this way, even when it makes you unhappy. Don't know if I went against the things you need to do to go forward. Didn't try to, it's a combination of doing what you want within things. Not doing things correctly. Feeling so insecure about what you are supposed to do. Knowing you could have done better but were insecure so you tried to work through it. My life is over and I am on a scrapheap. Internally feeling crushed. Rushing towards killing myself, despite being told to stop shouting.