Venting The pain never ends

[BlueButterfly111]

I feel bad about spamming this website with venting posts almost everyday, I know it's annoying for people to see my posts everyday. But people here are so kind, and I have nowhere else to go. I would love nothing more to be dead, but unfortunately my Sn hasn't arrived yet.

I just miss my boyfriend Henry so much. It's been 7 months since he passed away, and I still have moments where I cry for him. All I do is daydream about him, I'm still obsessed with him and in love with him. We were like that annoying ass couple that was always loving on each other and holding hands. I was so attached to him, he felt so safe, and his touch felt like home and magic and comfort. And his favorite color was blue.

I look over our messages and voice notes and just cry and cry. He was the most beautiful type of person, imagine a living teddy bear. It was really a fairytale type of romance, something you see on the movies. I'm just so lonely. I don't want to be with anyone else either, just him, there's no one like him. All I want to do is remember him and his love before I go.

I think it's so tragic, that so much love could've just been taken away by the universe. And now that love has no where else to go except my tears and my pain. Lingering in my heart and memories at all times. I love him so much, I've never loved anyone as much as I love him. I feel crazy. I just wish I could die already.

 

[mysticatedwine]

I'm so sorry that happened to you, no one should get their love taken away that suddenly. Please continue venting here, you sound like you need it. I wish you to find some piece, be it here or on the other side.

 

[ForeverCaHa]

Don't apologise for writing a lot about how you're feeling. Getting it all out and written down is definitely good for you.

Reading messages and listening to voice notes must be agonising. Give yourself credit for the strength it takes to do that in your situation.

 

[sla_porra22]

I'm so sorry for your loss, you're never bothering anyone by venting here. Please keep going. You need to. And if you ever need to talk, I don't mind listening to you. I hope your pain gets better, my condolences.

 

[genie]

I wouldn't worry about posting a lot. It's the only place we can post without being judged..

 

[BlueButterfly111]

Don't apologise for writing a lot about how you're feeling. Getting it all out and written down is definitely good for you.

Reading messages and listening to voice notes must be agonising. Give yourself credit for the strength it takes to do that in your situation.

I couldn't do it after he first passed away, but I think that so much time has passed now that I just miss him so much and want to feel his presence any way that I can! It is painful though, I cry almost every time I do it. To see "I miss you" after we had only have been away from each other for a few hours, to now having to live without him is heartbreaking!

I'm so sorry for your loss, you're never bothering anyone by venting here. Please keep going. You need to. And if you ever need to talk, I don't mind listening to you. I hope your pain gets better, my condolences.

Thank you so much I appreciate it!

 

[SchrodingerIsDed]

It's not frustrating for me. That's what this place is here for.

How'd you guys meet and what was your relationship like?

How long were you together?

 

[BlueButterfly111]

It's not frustrating for me. That's what this place is here for.

How'd you guys meet and what was your relationship like?

How long were you together?

Thanks.

I met him online, on a dating app. He only lived 30 minutes away from me. It was a very sweet and loving relationship, mutual love. We loved going to the park together and exercising. He really pulled me out of a dark place, he motivated me to be better, I miss him a lot.

I was with him for almost a year.