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Just wanting some peace
- Sep 24, 2020
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The truth is that to exist really is such a terrible thing, it's a curse how life is even able to exist in this world, with existing beings having the ability to suffer to such extreme extents. I've always viewed existence as being an unnecessary burden that I've never wanted anything to do with, it's a cruel thing to inflict this life onto someone all for selfish reasons and cause them to suffer all for the sake of it. There are no benefits to existing in this world where chance so cruelly determines everything and anyway all that we are destined for is to suffer, deteriorate and die. To me something so useless and tedious as existing could never be worth it in any way with the risk always being there of ending up in a situation of even worse torture, and all of this is why the thought of being gone comforts me.
Death removes all worries, all concerns and whatever we experienced in this life won't even be a distant memory. To me, suicide would be an act of compassion, but of course in this hellish world there is no straightforward way to exit and I see this as being something so terrible.
But it's true that at least for me death is the only relief from this punishment called life and I certainly envy those who are already gone. There are simply no disadvantages to being dead and this is why the thought of being gone is something so incredibly ideal to me. I very strongly believe that we just cease to exist after this with not even the awareness that we are dead, so therefore suicide could never be a negative or a sad thing. In fact it's perfection to me, returning to that ideal state of not existing where I won't have to be concerned with anything anymore and I have always felt so much comfort in the thought of non existence. There could never be anything appealing about staying in this cruel world filled with endless torment and it would certainly be ideal to have the option to pass away in our sleep, but sadly such an ideal way to die doesn't seem to be an option for us. The only ones who are really fortunate are those who are already gone as they are free from what the true problem is which is life itself.
Death removes all worries, all concerns and whatever we experienced in this life won't even be a distant memory. To me, suicide would be an act of compassion, but of course in this hellish world there is no straightforward way to exit and I see this as being something so terrible.
But it's true that at least for me death is the only relief from this punishment called life and I certainly envy those who are already gone. There are simply no disadvantages to being dead and this is why the thought of being gone is something so incredibly ideal to me. I very strongly believe that we just cease to exist after this with not even the awareness that we are dead, so therefore suicide could never be a negative or a sad thing. In fact it's perfection to me, returning to that ideal state of not existing where I won't have to be concerned with anything anymore and I have always felt so much comfort in the thought of non existence. There could never be anything appealing about staying in this cruel world filled with endless torment and it would certainly be ideal to have the option to pass away in our sleep, but sadly such an ideal way to die doesn't seem to be an option for us. The only ones who are really fortunate are those who are already gone as they are free from what the true problem is which is life itself.