[EmptySpace]
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- Apr 14, 2023
- 14
I don't know. There've been already two years since I started wanting to ctb. There were a lot of reasons. I didn't see a point in life, I was scared of future, I didn't want to get old and became uglier and so on.
But now... I think it's the most stupid of all. I fell in love with hetero-aromantic girl. AGAIN. I had been fallen in love with her last year. It was horrific. She stopped talking with me. Than I decided to move on. But i failed. A few days ago she found out I have feelings for her again. And she stopped talking to me again. I think I won't take it anymore. She's so nice person. I don't want to make her nervous. I don't know why I'm so cringe person. I know that she will never love me, "no" means "no" so wtf is wrong with me!? I'm disgusted with myself. I think it's an end. But ehhh i'm afraid that when I ctb, she'll be blaming herself. But It's really not her fault, it's mine. Agrh!! Life is so difficult! :(
But now... I think it's the most stupid of all. I fell in love with hetero-aromantic girl. AGAIN. I had been fallen in love with her last year. It was horrific. She stopped talking with me. Than I decided to move on. But i failed. A few days ago she found out I have feelings for her again. And she stopped talking to me again. I think I won't take it anymore. She's so nice person. I don't want to make her nervous. I don't know why I'm so cringe person. I know that she will never love me, "no" means "no" so wtf is wrong with me!? I'm disgusted with myself. I think it's an end. But ehhh i'm afraid that when I ctb, she'll be blaming herself. But It's really not her fault, it's mine. Agrh!! Life is so difficult! :(