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FlatHead
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- Dec 14, 2020
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So...this is an extremely unusual concern that I have. I've discussed it with multiple therapists/psychiatrists, as well as people close to me (not necessarily how this plays into the idea of death), but most don't really seem to take it seriously as a real thing, which honestly I understand-it does certainly FEEL like pop pseudoscience, closer to science fiction than anything. But it still is a major concern I have, all the same.
I'm sure we've all heard of the idea, or one of its many variants, but I'll explain the original idea all the same, for posterity. In physics, there seem to be many phenomena where the outcomes are random. Mostly involving individual particles colliding and the exact results being not entirely deterministic, but having some randomness to it. There exists a commonly discussed hypothesis that, when these random things happen, it is in fact the case that ALL possible outcomes occur. That the world itself branches or splinters, with every single possible result from every one of these "random" events all happening simultaneously, but in separate branches.
It's not something that has been confirmed. For the time being, there's no real way of proving or disproving it. And, to be perfectly honest, a lot of the math and science behind it is completely beyond my grasp. But...from what I've read, it has a high certainty of being true, and if it's NOT true, than we simply have to accept even stranger and (to me), even more contrived explanations.
Here's the thing: suicide methods generally have some % chance of failing. Even the seemingly most effective ones have a surprisingly high rate of failure. I've seen studies indicating that up to 20% of people who attempt death by gunshot survive. Now, some of that may be up to factors that the person could have controlled. But I worry that some truly, or close to truly random factors may influence things. A slight twitch of the hand at the last moment, a misfire of the gun, the bullet taking a slightly different than expected trajectory, the same happening to the wave of damage from it's impact...
The same applies to the pills that are commonly discussed here. There's so many small things that can happen with how your body reacts to stuff, that people do end up surviving. Even if they follow guides to the letter, it seems to sometimes just happen.
I've been researching different suicide methods and their % chances of completion. And I honestly can't really find one with a 100% chance. The best I can find is certain studies saying that certain methods were like 98% successful.
And, when combined with the MWI, this becomes extremely concerning. Whatever I try, I will ALWAYS survive. That is to say, there will be branches of the timeline where I die, as well as branches where I live. The branches where I live happen to be branches where I could experience tremendous amounts of pain, as well as very likely permanent injuries, perhaps including lifelong paralysis that prevents me from doing so again (which sounds like hell) and being locked up or physically restrained for my attempt.
What I am looking for is something with a true, 100% chance of killing me.
Right now, what I'm looking into is methods of instantly and completely destroying the brain. Specifically, the quick and instantaneous flattening of my head. If my brain gets completely and utterly obliterated, there should simply be no way that I continue living.
Initially, I was considering just dropping a very heavy object on my head-my couch, or perhaps my oven or laundry machines, especially if I can load them up with stuff. But, I think that even that has too high of a chance of survival (that is to say, any chance higher than 0%). Apparently, human bone is stronger than steel. The human body is shockingly and very inconveniently resistant to damage.
I'm looking into machinery, often industrial machinery, that I could use to crush my head. I've been researching hydraulic and pneumatic presses, but it's tricky to find accessible information as I am not familiar with a lot of the jargon. I would need something capable of applying enough force to crush the human skull (and the brain inside of it), and I would need it to do it FAST-fast enough that I wouldn't even perceive it happening, y'know? If the process is slow than that creates the opportunity for me to perceive and be aware of a crushing force being applied to my head, and the pain involved in that, even if it's only for a few moments. I've seen ones that move very slowly, as well as ones that move with insane speed to the point that it's hard to track them with your eye-the latter is more useful to me, as I wouldn't even have time to process what is happening. I'd also like to be able to have it time delayed so that this process can happen while I am asleep with my head under it. Even better, if I can have it controlled by a computer-that way I'd be able to set it up with one of those apps that detect once you're asleep, and make it so that that triggers the crushing of my head, as well as triggering automated messages to my loved ones shortly after. It would also be for the best if it was big enough to crush my entire head at once, as opposed to small and moreso punching a hole THROUGH my head, as I worry that the surrounding unsquished parts of my brain would remain conscious. However, I think it might be possible to simply attach a large metal plate to it if it was small so that it would cover my entire head properly.
I've also considered using explosives for a similar purpose, but Canadian laws make those much harder to acquire, and I'd prefer not to run afoul of the law. However, it is a possibility, and I am open to other possibilities along the lines of "quick and total destruction of the brain"/"0% chance of survival plan" other than flattening or exploding my head, if anyone has any suggestions.
I would greatly appreciate if anyone could offer any help or suggestions for this method, such as directing me towards any tools or products that you think might be usable, or explaining to me details of their use or operation or secondary tools that might not be immediately obvious to me. I have, at most...a couple hundred, possibly a thousand plus a couple hundred dollars to spend. Canadian dollars.
One final thing: the main issue where I could see this failing is, of course, a mechanical failure. However, it is important to note that, if the machine were to simply fail and not activate, I wouldn't be injured whatsoever, and nobody would ever know that I did anything. In that sense, having a 0% survival rate isn't so much important, as long as it's either I fully die or I fully survive. However, I do worry that these machines could somehow fail partway through pressing me, or alternatively not press with the amount of force that they were supposed to. From my understanding of how they work, I'm not sure if that's possible-it seems to be all very physical stuff involving air and pressure and stuff, which...many worlds interpretation aside, the laws of physics will ALWAYS continue to apply, and if something trips off such an extreme amount of pressure, it simply MUST be released one way or another. That is to say, I don't think that it can only "half crush" me, I think that a mechanical failure would instead be more like the machine as a whole fails to activate altogether, which as I said would actually be fine. But I'm not completely confident that I am correct.
Any help, guidance, or answers to any of my questions is immensely appreciated. Thank you for your time.
I'm sure we've all heard of the idea, or one of its many variants, but I'll explain the original idea all the same, for posterity. In physics, there seem to be many phenomena where the outcomes are random. Mostly involving individual particles colliding and the exact results being not entirely deterministic, but having some randomness to it. There exists a commonly discussed hypothesis that, when these random things happen, it is in fact the case that ALL possible outcomes occur. That the world itself branches or splinters, with every single possible result from every one of these "random" events all happening simultaneously, but in separate branches.
It's not something that has been confirmed. For the time being, there's no real way of proving or disproving it. And, to be perfectly honest, a lot of the math and science behind it is completely beyond my grasp. But...from what I've read, it has a high certainty of being true, and if it's NOT true, than we simply have to accept even stranger and (to me), even more contrived explanations.
Here's the thing: suicide methods generally have some % chance of failing. Even the seemingly most effective ones have a surprisingly high rate of failure. I've seen studies indicating that up to 20% of people who attempt death by gunshot survive. Now, some of that may be up to factors that the person could have controlled. But I worry that some truly, or close to truly random factors may influence things. A slight twitch of the hand at the last moment, a misfire of the gun, the bullet taking a slightly different than expected trajectory, the same happening to the wave of damage from it's impact...
The same applies to the pills that are commonly discussed here. There's so many small things that can happen with how your body reacts to stuff, that people do end up surviving. Even if they follow guides to the letter, it seems to sometimes just happen.
I've been researching different suicide methods and their % chances of completion. And I honestly can't really find one with a 100% chance. The best I can find is certain studies saying that certain methods were like 98% successful.
And, when combined with the MWI, this becomes extremely concerning. Whatever I try, I will ALWAYS survive. That is to say, there will be branches of the timeline where I die, as well as branches where I live. The branches where I live happen to be branches where I could experience tremendous amounts of pain, as well as very likely permanent injuries, perhaps including lifelong paralysis that prevents me from doing so again (which sounds like hell) and being locked up or physically restrained for my attempt.
What I am looking for is something with a true, 100% chance of killing me.
Right now, what I'm looking into is methods of instantly and completely destroying the brain. Specifically, the quick and instantaneous flattening of my head. If my brain gets completely and utterly obliterated, there should simply be no way that I continue living.
Initially, I was considering just dropping a very heavy object on my head-my couch, or perhaps my oven or laundry machines, especially if I can load them up with stuff. But, I think that even that has too high of a chance of survival (that is to say, any chance higher than 0%). Apparently, human bone is stronger than steel. The human body is shockingly and very inconveniently resistant to damage.
I'm looking into machinery, often industrial machinery, that I could use to crush my head. I've been researching hydraulic and pneumatic presses, but it's tricky to find accessible information as I am not familiar with a lot of the jargon. I would need something capable of applying enough force to crush the human skull (and the brain inside of it), and I would need it to do it FAST-fast enough that I wouldn't even perceive it happening, y'know? If the process is slow than that creates the opportunity for me to perceive and be aware of a crushing force being applied to my head, and the pain involved in that, even if it's only for a few moments. I've seen ones that move very slowly, as well as ones that move with insane speed to the point that it's hard to track them with your eye-the latter is more useful to me, as I wouldn't even have time to process what is happening. I'd also like to be able to have it time delayed so that this process can happen while I am asleep with my head under it. Even better, if I can have it controlled by a computer-that way I'd be able to set it up with one of those apps that detect once you're asleep, and make it so that that triggers the crushing of my head, as well as triggering automated messages to my loved ones shortly after. It would also be for the best if it was big enough to crush my entire head at once, as opposed to small and moreso punching a hole THROUGH my head, as I worry that the surrounding unsquished parts of my brain would remain conscious. However, I think it might be possible to simply attach a large metal plate to it if it was small so that it would cover my entire head properly.
I've also considered using explosives for a similar purpose, but Canadian laws make those much harder to acquire, and I'd prefer not to run afoul of the law. However, it is a possibility, and I am open to other possibilities along the lines of "quick and total destruction of the brain"/"0% chance of survival plan" other than flattening or exploding my head, if anyone has any suggestions.
I would greatly appreciate if anyone could offer any help or suggestions for this method, such as directing me towards any tools or products that you think might be usable, or explaining to me details of their use or operation or secondary tools that might not be immediately obvious to me. I have, at most...a couple hundred, possibly a thousand plus a couple hundred dollars to spend. Canadian dollars.
One final thing: the main issue where I could see this failing is, of course, a mechanical failure. However, it is important to note that, if the machine were to simply fail and not activate, I wouldn't be injured whatsoever, and nobody would ever know that I did anything. In that sense, having a 0% survival rate isn't so much important, as long as it's either I fully die or I fully survive. However, I do worry that these machines could somehow fail partway through pressing me, or alternatively not press with the amount of force that they were supposed to. From my understanding of how they work, I'm not sure if that's possible-it seems to be all very physical stuff involving air and pressure and stuff, which...many worlds interpretation aside, the laws of physics will ALWAYS continue to apply, and if something trips off such an extreme amount of pressure, it simply MUST be released one way or another. That is to say, I don't think that it can only "half crush" me, I think that a mechanical failure would instead be more like the machine as a whole fails to activate altogether, which as I said would actually be fine. But I'm not completely confident that I am correct.
Any help, guidance, or answers to any of my questions is immensely appreciated. Thank you for your time.