Discussion The longer I wait, the harder it is to do it

[Jessica-]

I don't know about you guys but the longer I wait ,the harder it is to CTB. I seem to settle for this shit life and overthink about CTB. I want to end it so badly but am always procrastinating. I remember my last attempt several years back where I just read up on the method , bought the essentials and just did it the same day the stuff arrived. It's just a shame it failed..I need the same resolve again, pls help!

 

[dandan]

So you have N?

Otherwise would be much harder... I already tried the Nitrogen method, but I can't decide to drink N!!!

It's also a logistic thing
I live far away from my mom, maybe I should travel back home and ctb in a hotel , that way my mom can see me and incinerate me

I don't want my mom to expend her money on moving my body

 

[Jessica-]

So you have N?

No, A said that I live in a high risk country where there is a good chance of the package being intercepted. So I would have to go with SN or CO. You are right having N will definitely make it easier.

 

[dandan]

No, A said that I live in a high risk country where there is a good chance of the package being intercepted. So I would have to go with SN or CO. You are right having N will definitely make it easier.

Having Ns, shouldbe easier , but thinking in drinking it it's also heavy burden...

life was supposed to be good , enjoyable, a nice experience....

 

[Jessica-]

life was supposed to be good , enjoyable, a nice experience...

It was for me until I got sick. Life can turn on anyone with the blink of an eye....

 

[EddieAllenPoe]

I think it's funny to hear people on here say they wished they lived in a country where they could own a shotgun. Because, obviously, having access to a shotgun somehow means that CTB would be easier. This is clearly not true. It would seem I'm proof. I have gathered up almost all of the methods besides N. CTB'ing is something you unfortunately have to face alone. If it's what you really need to do, just know you weren't alone. Other people here have had to go down that path. It's also understandable if you don't. If any of us could "give" you the motivation, it'd be closer to murder. Trust me when I say I understand the struggle.