RedEther
Member
- Sep 3, 2021
- 92
I think I would be used to it by now, but Its been hitting me really hard lately. Especially since Iv made this decision. Iv pushed everyone away in fear of hurting them and for the fear of sabotage. The one person I knew I could trust is breaking down so Iv had to lie to destress them. Every morning I wake up the weight of how alone i am in this crushes me immediately. I hate that I cant talk to anyone with out them stressing out or wanting to lock me away. Im running out of edibles to numb the pain but once I run out Idk what Ill do. I start thinking about when Ill finally find my ticket and how ill be alone with no connection.
I try the hotline to talk to someone whenever the loneliness gets over whelming, but having to reexplain everything over and over again get so frustrating, especially in the same day. All they really do is give you links to things and send you on your way.
I honestly need someone to talk to. People who understand. Its hard since i know none can be there for me 24/7 and the feeling of being a burden kicks in.
IDk I suck at explaining my points though text. I have one of those phone apps with throw away numbers, is it in the rules to share it?
I try the hotline to talk to someone whenever the loneliness gets over whelming, but having to reexplain everything over and over again get so frustrating, especially in the same day. All they really do is give you links to things and send you on your way.
I honestly need someone to talk to. People who understand. Its hard since i know none can be there for me 24/7 and the feeling of being a burden kicks in.
IDk I suck at explaining my points though text. I have one of those phone apps with throw away numbers, is it in the rules to share it?