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Yasuke
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- Jan 29, 2020
- 93
I cant help myself when I'm all alone in this world helpless to misery and anguish, so some like me are left to rot in hell while others thrive and find reasons to live I just cant and nobody can for me. Im not strong enough and perhaps I dont deserve to live. I cant just make myself happy and find meaning in this world when all I feel and see is despair. I have to die by my own hands if I must.
its be coming more and more apparent to me that I have no other option even though I'm too lazy and preserved to. I dont want to die I just cant stand living.
It just cant be harder than being a slave 40 years miserably and not having friends, passion, a girlfriend, wife, sex, etc. Theres nothing worse than waking up into this rotten planet hating your existence groggy. What kind of sick twisted world. I dont want to live and struggle to survive because I just dont fucking care to live for anything enough for modicums of pleasure.
And The alienation, the fact that youre all alone is not fucking freeing its depressing. I want someone to care about me deeply and meaningfully but its impossible to find.
I cant imagine why anyone I dont care to put any effort into anything it's just so pointless It's too much pain for something that is so meaningless in the end.
its be coming more and more apparent to me that I have no other option even though I'm too lazy and preserved to. I dont want to die I just cant stand living.
It just cant be harder than being a slave 40 years miserably and not having friends, passion, a girlfriend, wife, sex, etc. Theres nothing worse than waking up into this rotten planet hating your existence groggy. What kind of sick twisted world. I dont want to live and struggle to survive because I just dont fucking care to live for anything enough for modicums of pleasure.
And The alienation, the fact that youre all alone is not fucking freeing its depressing. I want someone to care about me deeply and meaningfully but its impossible to find.
I cant imagine why anyone I dont care to put any effort into anything it's just so pointless It's too much pain for something that is so meaningless in the end.