Judah
Enlightened
- Oct 1, 2020
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I have recently become a hikikomori again, society really terrifies me and I am unable to live in it.
I'm going to go back a bit, my autism gave me a bit more intelligence than the average of my peers when I was a child, this made many people interested in me at that age, they often told me that my mission in this life was to be a successful person and start a company and grew up with those ideas, but unfortunately I do not have important elements such as charisma or the sense of entrepreneurship that makes a person sell an idea quickly, even so the people around me believe that I will be at the economic peak at some point but at the same time they are unable to trust me with important things because I am mentally unstable, the worst of all is that I cannot give up this goal because I am not able to admit my failure.
I have made attempts to meet my goal, but there are simply many factors like the environment or the current economy that caused me to fall, damn, my uncle managed to start a small photography company in just one year, in the early 2000s, and the Wait for me to do the same, damn it! What nobody says is that my uncle created that company thanks to the thousands of dollars subsidized by the government of Hugo Chavez.
So I wonder if I'm doomed to break down every time I try to achieve my goal, I just can't come up with good ideas. Today a guy comes and sells a simple pixel of a photograph for millions of dollars, or this is driving me crazy, and more and more it makes me want to leave this world
I'm going to go back a bit, my autism gave me a bit more intelligence than the average of my peers when I was a child, this made many people interested in me at that age, they often told me that my mission in this life was to be a successful person and start a company and grew up with those ideas, but unfortunately I do not have important elements such as charisma or the sense of entrepreneurship that makes a person sell an idea quickly, even so the people around me believe that I will be at the economic peak at some point but at the same time they are unable to trust me with important things because I am mentally unstable, the worst of all is that I cannot give up this goal because I am not able to admit my failure.
I have made attempts to meet my goal, but there are simply many factors like the environment or the current economy that caused me to fall, damn, my uncle managed to start a small photography company in just one year, in the early 2000s, and the Wait for me to do the same, damn it! What nobody says is that my uncle created that company thanks to the thousands of dollars subsidized by the government of Hugo Chavez.
So I wonder if I'm doomed to break down every time I try to achieve my goal, I just can't come up with good ideas. Today a guy comes and sells a simple pixel of a photograph for millions of dollars, or this is driving me crazy, and more and more it makes me want to leave this world