bunintherug
husk of a girl
- Jan 1, 2024
- 25
i went to the ER last night and told them the full scope of everything that i've been thinking, feeling, and doing. including an attempt that got interrupted by my roommates waking up. but, that wasn't enough to be admitted involuntarily, so since my insurance only covers one hospital and that one was full, i was discharged.
when i got home, my partner who had dropped me off there called me and broke up with me because i've gotten to the point of pretty much only seeing them as my support, and no one else. i just wish they had talked to me sooner so we could figure it out without taking a "break", i know that we're not going to come back from this break, i never have.
i feel so alone without them, i don't even have the energy to get out of bed and take care of my cats anymore. i might ctb before i was planning. my date was only so far away because their birthday is coming up, and i didn't want to miss it. but now there's no reason not to
when i got home, my partner who had dropped me off there called me and broke up with me because i've gotten to the point of pretty much only seeing them as my support, and no one else. i just wish they had talked to me sooner so we could figure it out without taking a "break", i know that we're not going to come back from this break, i never have.
i feel so alone without them, i don't even have the energy to get out of bed and take care of my cats anymore. i might ctb before i was planning. my date was only so far away because their birthday is coming up, and i didn't want to miss it. but now there's no reason not to
