The goodbye posts make me sad

[LivingToLong]

They do, each and every one moves me, some to tears.

I feel sad because of what people are driven to. Their worlds have become so intolerable as to leave only one choice. And I respect that choice, and am not judgemental.

I read of letters being written, preparations being made, best advivce being followed, a methodology. In some goodbyes, I read acceptance of the choice made. There's a calm, a stillness; as if a sort of peace has already been found. I can be almost envious, as I am not there yet. I know I will go at some point, but not quite yet. Ironically, in researching methods I found this forum, and this forum gave me a kind of hope. Sometimes, my depression bites down hard and a bleakness shuts out hope but that's not as often as it once was. I still see the future as bleak for me and many, many other people. I might not share their circumsatnaces but I have felt enough pain in my own world to enable me to empathise.

Life should be enjoyable. It really should. That it's not for so many people is what rips me up. Each CBT is not a failure of the individual, it's a damning criticism of the world we live in.

 

[BlueWidow]

I know what you mean. I get so overwhelmed reading a lot of them that I can't even post anything. I want to say something meaningful, but sometimes nothing I can think of seems worthy of the gravity of the situation.

 

[Deleted member 1465]

I know what you mean. I get so overwhelmed reading a lot of them that I can't even post anything. I want to say something meaningful, but sometimes nothing I can think of seems worthy of the gravity of the situation.

Same

 

[Time]

Well said, LivingToLong. Whenever I see one I try to follow each one to the very end. I remember several years ago a former friend of mine would go on Tumblr & I would see people's goodbye threads & I would be just horrified. Like why are people posting this stuff & why is no one trying to help/stop them. But the way I see me & the world @ this point in my life, I now see a beauty in it as I now realize that ctb IS a viable solution for some people. And I've come to the conclusion that this is the choice for me. Reading/following others goodbye threads does give me some sadness but I think more of a sense of peace & happiness. For them & me. I do tend to fight back tears but they're mostly tears of joy because they're hopefully @ peace (& hopefully went peacefully).

 

[JimFord99]

They should not be make you sad. It is the way it is. Saying good bye is an appreciation to be here, and honouree the members.

 

[Astral316]

Goodbye posts make me happy. Suffering is ending and the act of suicide is normalized so I won't be apprehensive when I ctb myself.

That said, I doubt I'm leaving a goodbye post. I've lived my entire life without social support, no use seeking it out for my death.

 

[BridgeJumper]

I must admit that the goodbye threads make me feel uneasy.
I met a lot of suicidal people in real life and on other platforms, but since killing yourself is such a taboo subject, I never got to hear from them in the midst of attempting / or from their family post attempt. You just dont talk about things like that here
Im sad for all of those people, and when my best friend over here ctb I disconnected my internet off, travelled to my other house 240 km away from here, locked myself in my room and didnt leave for 5 days. Still cant get over it , and the desire to jump got even stronger.

 

[DoNotLet2]

I am sad but because best people are gone and I know it's the only way for them to stop suffering which is also sad, because great people shouldn't suffer the hell.

 

[Sensei]

It's harrowing to read the goodbye threads. I really want to reach out to them and tell them there's always another option, but I realise that if they have decided to take the final step they have probably thought it through thoroughly and don't need my advice. I want to say goodbye to them, but it feels sort of disrespectful when I'm new here and they don't know me.

 

[Why you?]

I totally relate to you, LivingToLong.

 

[Emily123]

They don't make me sad . I get jelous that I can not do it now because I don't have access to N or SN or any other peacful method