Venting The feeling of never belonging

[UninformedLover]

Its like no matter what I do, where I go, I always feel Iike I don't belong there. Everytime I get a new job or join some program I end up being a friendless loser and I feel like a lonely child all over again. Thought it would go away in adulthood but its just gotten worse.

It kinda feels like I'm some creature pretending to be human. Everyone around me can amass friends so easily and have effortless conversations while I'm just there...being off-putting, ugly and shy.

 

[behindtheveil]

As a veteran of the situation you described, life can be cruel. But that does not mean that you declare yourself a loser. If anything, you are a warrior on a path of uncertainty.
Stay strong, stay safe and know that you are special.
The heck with the rest.

 

[here_for_now]

Its like no matter what I do, where I go, I always feel Iike I don't belong there. Everytime I get a new job or join some program I end up being a friendless loser and I feel like a lonely child all over again. Thought it would go away in adulthood but its just gotten worse.

It kinda feels like I'm some creature pretending to be human. Everyone around me can amass friends so easily and have effortless conversations while I'm just there...being off-putting, ugly and shy.

Yep right there with you friend, I'm just an aimless dog looking for a new owner haha.

 

[Ghostlights]

Its like no matter what I do, where I go, I always feel Iike I don't belong there. Everytime I get a new job or join some program I end up being a friendless loser and I feel like a lonely child all over again. Thought it would go away in adulthood but its just gotten worse.

It kinda feels like I'm some creature pretending to be human. Everyone around me can amass friends so easily and have effortless conversations while I'm just there...being off-putting, ugly and shy.

I often feel the same... sometimes I try to integrate myself into a group, but most of the time it doesn't really work. When I say something it usually gets overheard (or ignored) or weird looks... but when someone says the same thing, which I said just a bit earlier, they find it funny or interesting and engage in further conversation with the person, who copied what I said. I don't get it. I find it quite strange, that I have actually found some people, who consider me as a friend... I mean, I only see them in school, but it's alright, I guess. Those are mostly people who I share interests with... except for one... we just bond by trauma-dumping and info-dumping about topics the other one has little to no clue about.

 

[here_for_now]

I often feel the same... sometimes I try to integrate myself into a group, but most of the time it doesn't really work. When I say something it usually gets overheard (or ignored) or weird looks... but when someone says the same thing, which I said just a bit earlier, they find it funny or interesting and engage in further conversation with the person, who copied what I said. I don't get it. I find it quite strange, that I have actually found some people, who consider me as a friend... I mean, I only see them in school, but it's alright, I guess. Those are mostly people who I share interests with... except for one... we just bond by trauma-dumping and info-dumping about topics the other one has little to no clue about.

Fuck them other people, your enough just the way you are.

 

[Spite]

It kinda feels like I'm some creature pretending to be human. Everyone around me can amass friends so easily and have effortless conversations while I'm just there...being off-putting, ugly and shy.

This pretty much describes me to a T. I'm sorry you also feel this way. :( I wish I could say there's some kind of treatment or cure for this, but I don't think there is, especially if rejection, shunning, and being exiled from society is all we have ever known.

 

[vitbar]

I have struggled with this most of my life. Thankfully I care less as I age, and have made some friends along the way.