Leorio Paradinight
Member
- Aug 22, 2021
- 18
I've written and burned several notes, all of them suck. My friends are the only thing in my life that's worth anything and I just want to talk to them... I'm going away forever and I'm not able to have an honest talk with the people I care about the most.
I don't blame anyone. It's only natural that for non-suicidal people who aren't this familiar with and desensitized by death, bringing something like that up will devastate them and change your relationship with them forever and I also don't blame anyone for trying to make someone stay. (My sister would abandon her entire life to make sure I go to sleep everyday if she knew).
It's just pissing me off because I'll die having been in complete isolation without ever having a chance to explain and for once in my life, be honest with them.
I just want closure and I want to give them closure. Notes suck, I can't write for shit, these words don't sound like me at all and at this point I'm better off leaving everyone in the dark. Fucking great.
I don't blame anyone. It's only natural that for non-suicidal people who aren't this familiar with and desensitized by death, bringing something like that up will devastate them and change your relationship with them forever and I also don't blame anyone for trying to make someone stay. (My sister would abandon her entire life to make sure I go to sleep everyday if she knew).
It's just pissing me off because I'll die having been in complete isolation without ever having a chance to explain and for once in my life, be honest with them.
I just want closure and I want to give them closure. Notes suck, I can't write for shit, these words don't sound like me at all and at this point I'm better off leaving everyone in the dark. Fucking great.
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