I spent 18 months on an adolescent unit that destroyed my life, my relationship with my parents and family, gave me anxiety, depression, complex PTSD, social phobia, emotionally unstable personality disorder. I was bullied so much by nurses and fellow "inmates". I lived there. One nurse suggested I should be beat up in a group morning meeting because I was introverted. That was the only reason, because I was introverted as if that's a bad thing. It works for J K Rowling and Bill Gates! I am now 47 and have lived with problems for as long as I remember. I despise almost all the nurses there. They were nasty, spiteful and just not competent at all. I have tried to get help throughout my life but none is forthcoming, not under any Government, Labour or Conservative. I was nearly sectioned a few weeks ago. I attended at hospital but the wait was so long (Medway, one of the worst hospitals in the UK) and then went missing. I got a taxi back to my house because I was sick of waiting. The police were out for me. I am told by my friend that I was reported in the local newspaper. That's why I won't drink anymore. I just cannot go back to a hospital and deal with the inhumanity of it because of my experiences. All they ever said to me in the unit was that I must have been abused and that denying it was a symptom of being abused! They just went on about it all the time. I wasn't abused by anyone. A psychiatrist there actually cried in front of me and said she fancied her dad so I must fancy mine! Another psychiatrist a few years ago asked me to diagnose myself, choose my own medication from a book and proofread her notes because her English was so bad. Each appointment took three times longer than necessary because I had to keep talking slowly so she would understand me at all (don't take that as racist because without foreign workers the NHS would not survive). We need to get rid of CBT, which is just BS and doesn't address real problems. It is not faulty thoughts that is the problem, it's real problems - that's why since the economic downturn depression and suicide has been rising - people aren't just thinking "faulty" all of a sudden. Now I am under the care of a psychiatrist who does not even contact me art all. I was lied to by the service back in October. I was told that I could not get CBT at all. This was not true. They just want to get rid of you and will lie to you to do that. I cannot get psychotherapy because of my drinking. This is all so much BS. They make me out to be someone who drinks from early in the morning to night and that is not the case. They just use it as an excuse to turn me away because the NHS has no money because rich people don't pay taxes at all anymore
