Venting The entire world is ignoring me

[Doz]

Why does literally everyone ignore my existence? Every time I try to put myself out there everyone always just ignores me or brushes me off. I'm not rude, I don't smell, I listen. What else do I have to say here? I know I'm not great socially but damn after this long there isn't at least one loser on the planet that wants anything to do with me. And it's always me that has to make an effort for other people. Always gotta engage with others when clearly no one wants to engage with me. Why is it that literally EVERY time I get back up and try again, try putting myself out there again I fail EVERY TIME? WHAT DID I DO WRONG?? Well why doesn't anyone make an effort for ME? How come no one ever comes up and talks to ME?? It's to the point where I could be bleeding out on the floor and people would walk right over me- no ON TOP OF ME and not notice. It's so bad no one would even want to mug me at gun point and I would LOVE to be held at gun point. I'm pretty much life's guinea pig, just being mentally poked and prodded at seeing how much worse things can get.

There's so much more I could say about this but I feel like absolute garbage right now and don't want to start rambling. All I got left to say is if there is a god out there he's clearly not very merciful or loving

 

[divinemistress36]

You have done nothing wrong, the truth is humans are selfish and in their own heads most the time and if someone doesnt have something of use to them they move on

 

[rebelnow111]

Why does literally everyone ignore my existence? Every time I try to put myself out there everyone always just ignores me or brushes me off. I'm not rude, I don't smell, I listen. What else do I have to say here? I know I'm not great socially but damn after this long there isn't at least one loser on the planet that wants anything to do with me. And it's always me that has to make an effort for other people. Always gotta engage with others when clearly no one wants to engage with me. Why is it that literally EVERY time I get back up and try again, try putting myself out there again I fail EVERY TIME? WHAT DID I DO WRONG?? Well why doesn't anyone make an effort for ME? How come no one ever comes up and talks to ME?? It's to the point where I could be bleeding out on the floor and people would walk right over me- no ON TOP OF ME and not notice. It's so bad no one would even want to mug me at gun point and I would LOVE to be held at gun point. I'm pretty much life's guinea pig, just being mentally poked and prodded at seeing how much worse things can get.

There's so much more I could say about this but I feel like absolute garbage right now and don't want to start rambling. All I got left to say is if there is a god out there he's clearly not very merciful or loving

i know the feeling. people are terrible

 

[CTB Dream]

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[Forever Sleep]

Maybe it's that you haven't found the right person/people yet. Have you noticed shared interests with the people you've tried to befriend? Even similar ways of thinking or seeing the world? I think it's unlikely to build connections with people you don't have much in common with.

I guess I have rather a cynical view of all relationships. I think they're transactional basically. Maybe depends on the person- some like having lots of fair weather friends but, I think for deeper connections, we consciously or subconsciously look for specific things in one another. Specific needs to fill I suppose. Almost like a job interview, it often feels like there's another candidate that fits the role better than me. It can really hurt if you really think a lot of someone and it isn't reciprocated.

I don't know that it's cruelty as such. I just think it's how we're wired. We have preferences. All of us do- otherwise, we'd all be just as eager to make friends with everyone.

Truthfully though, I don't have much faith in friendship anymore. Someone I once considered to be my soul mate I barely contact at all now. We're barely friends even. Sadly, modern life is so busy. Especially as friends get older and start having families- their attention goes to them. So, honestly I actually think it's risky depending on other people. Also, having expectations of them also leads to disappointment sadly.

If you do really want this though, I think you will have to just keep trying until you find someone who is happy to reciprocate. I hope you do find them.

 

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Why does literally everyone ignore my existence? Every time I try to put myself out there everyone always just ignores me or brushes me off. I'm not rude, I don't smell, I listen. What else do I have to say here? I know I'm not great socially but damn after this long there isn't at least one loser on the planet that wants anything to do with me. And it's always me that has to make an effort for other people. Always gotta engage with others when clearly no one wants to engage with me. Why is it that literally EVERY time I get back up and try again, try putting myself out there again I fail EVERY TIME? WHAT DID I DO WRONG?? Well why doesn't anyone make an effort for ME? How come no one ever comes up and talks to ME?? It's to the point where I could be bleeding out on the floor and people would walk right over me- no ON TOP OF ME and not notice. It's so bad no one would even want to mug me at gun point and I would LOVE to be held at gun point. I'm pretty much life's guinea pig, just being mentally poked and prodded at seeing how much worse things can get.

There's so much more I could say about this but I feel like absolute garbage right now and don't want to start rambling. All I got left to say is if there is a god out there he's clearly not very merciful or loving

Considering the vast majority of people are absolute garbage humans, my bet is you're one of the ones that aren't.

 

[BoneWeary57]

It's interesting because I am the opposite where I WANT people to leave me alone. I have ZERO desire to have a social life, friends or relationship beyond the pass and repass at work or whereever. My spouse was born/raised and has lived all their life in the town we live now. My spouse has friends, goes to lunch with coworkers/friends, knows almost everyone - for my spouse that works. For me, I interact w/my spouse, people at work or in stores when necessary but I find being alone calming. I can't stand idle chat, I'm not into the latest hollywood people, fashion or games. So for me, it's more I guess not having the same values/interests as most people I'm around. I'm ok with that. But if you are someone who wants friends, etc - which is great - then as others have suggested look toward where those people with similar interests would be. For instance, you love animals - think about volunteering at a rescue or shelter, you like building things, think about working for or volunteering for habitat for humanity. There are options and frankly, you sound like you would be a great friend. Working in healthcare is another great way to meet people.