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-Memento Mori-
- Dec 3, 2019
- 1,442
Hi everyone I hope you are doing well. I will probably ctb next week if no one interrupts me and my setup doesn't fail (full suspension). I am forced to do it, my sleep is getting very bad.
For those that don't know I got severe insomnia from psych med withdrawal (prescribed antipsychotic and I only had depression). Tried to go back on it to slowly tapper but I never stabilised and recently situation got a lot worse. I am forced to do it. I got a lot of other health issues from meds and I regret ever seeking psychiatrist's help. I tried everything to sleep but nothing helps and I hate being on this disgusting drug just to sleep for a few minutes a day.
I am losing my mind. I can't do anything anymore because my brain is shutting down. I look horrible and I refuse to live like this anymore. It has been 4 months and situation only got worse. I read lots of horror stories and some people hardly ever sleep for years after this drug (olanzapine) ruined their brain. I was active on surviving antidepressants forum where people share their issues but most of them are delusional and keep saying It will get better when clearly for some people it never does. They piss me off so much. This is the only place where people accept that for some of us things will never get better only worse and that suicide is fine. They told me to seek help because I am suicidal lol. Morons. That "help" got us here in the first place. Lots of religious bullshit too about suicide being wrong.
Anyway that is about it. Don't know what else to say. It was nice being here, I wish you all the end of your suffering. I hope I can make myself do it because this is hell, I don't want to live like this anymore. I want it to end.
For those that don't know I got severe insomnia from psych med withdrawal (prescribed antipsychotic and I only had depression). Tried to go back on it to slowly tapper but I never stabilised and recently situation got a lot worse. I am forced to do it. I got a lot of other health issues from meds and I regret ever seeking psychiatrist's help. I tried everything to sleep but nothing helps and I hate being on this disgusting drug just to sleep for a few minutes a day.
I am losing my mind. I can't do anything anymore because my brain is shutting down. I look horrible and I refuse to live like this anymore. It has been 4 months and situation only got worse. I read lots of horror stories and some people hardly ever sleep for years after this drug (olanzapine) ruined their brain. I was active on surviving antidepressants forum where people share their issues but most of them are delusional and keep saying It will get better when clearly for some people it never does. They piss me off so much. This is the only place where people accept that for some of us things will never get better only worse and that suicide is fine. They told me to seek help because I am suicidal lol. Morons. That "help" got us here in the first place. Lots of religious bullshit too about suicide being wrong.
Anyway that is about it. Don't know what else to say. It was nice being here, I wish you all the end of your suffering. I hope I can make myself do it because this is hell, I don't want to live like this anymore. I want it to end.
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