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dandan
One more attempt on life.
- Feb 18, 2019
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Thanks to hormone therapy, I'm no longer depressed, in my case Testosterone did the trick. (And dianabol)
My balls seems to shrink a little, I will discuss that with my doctor next visit.
However, even though I'm no longer "depressed"
Observing the 20 years lost to depression do affects, me a little, especially in those moments of reflection or of observing the past and lost opportunities.
In those twenty years I did lose a huge amount of opportunities, opportunities to make money, to enhance my career, to grow resilience, to meet people , friends or connections, girls, and now I feel
Specially learning to make money somewhat complex.
I met old friends yesterday and I was happy yesterday, I woke up to see the huge gap between us and how will I make a living?
My job and salary is not something big.
I have now to take care of myself , of my thoughts and to see forward, not backward, but it is not even a steep hill I got to climb, it's like I cannot even see the hill, or not even what my next step should be.
We all know women like security, and financial security is important to them and to men too. How can I get a girl really interested in me if I can't offer her that... (talking about girls in my social circle, I'm low and poor but my social circle is high class).
I think I posted something similar before, I also need to vent, again, it's so uncomfortable and disturbing. What am I gonna do? I can't ask for an answer!! I gotta take care of myself cause no one else will, I'm alone, maybe some support like the support here but mothers love or friends dont fix the situation. Damm what am I gonna do?
My balls seems to shrink a little, I will discuss that with my doctor next visit.
However, even though I'm no longer "depressed"
Observing the 20 years lost to depression do affects, me a little, especially in those moments of reflection or of observing the past and lost opportunities.
In those twenty years I did lose a huge amount of opportunities, opportunities to make money, to enhance my career, to grow resilience, to meet people , friends or connections, girls, and now I feel
Specially learning to make money somewhat complex.
I met old friends yesterday and I was happy yesterday, I woke up to see the huge gap between us and how will I make a living?
My job and salary is not something big.
I have now to take care of myself , of my thoughts and to see forward, not backward, but it is not even a steep hill I got to climb, it's like I cannot even see the hill, or not even what my next step should be.
We all know women like security, and financial security is important to them and to men too. How can I get a girl really interested in me if I can't offer her that... (talking about girls in my social circle, I'm low and poor but my social circle is high class).
I think I posted something similar before, I also need to vent, again, it's so uncomfortable and disturbing. What am I gonna do? I can't ask for an answer!! I gotta take care of myself cause no one else will, I'm alone, maybe some support like the support here but mothers love or friends dont fix the situation. Damm what am I gonna do?