Bardia
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- Jul 11, 2019
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It's well-known that death due to severe methemoglobinemia from SN poisoning leaves the carcass with cynanosis (a bluish tint), and blood the color of mud. This is apparently very noticeable and makes it obvious that the cause of death was SN poisoning. Spectrophotometry on autopsy will reveal the methemoglobinemia regardless; I know that, too.
But for how long after death is the cyanosis really noticeable?
I've long had a fantasy of peacefully CTB somewhere in the wilderness, where it would be unlikely (although, never impossible) for my corpse to be found in less than a few days, ideally a week. Partly I wish to do this because I want to die in the place where I feel the most alive, the wild. But also I'm hoping my death is not 100% obviously a suicide to appearances, due to the stigma surrounding the "ultimate selfish act," general lack of empathy or understanding, potential inappropriately assumed responsibility taken on by loved ones, etc. And of course being too far from a hospital to receive treatment is appealing.
My plan is to take a cocktail of SN and DMSO (Dimethyl sulfoxide), far out in the wilderness. I'll carry a backpack and the ten essentials. I'll mix the concoction before I get far away from a trash container, where I will dispose of the original bottles for the compounds, and consume it from a nondescript glass container. My plan is to do this soon.
I know increased hiker/backpacker traffic increases the risk of early discovery, but warmer temperatures make it easier to keep the DMSO working effectively as a solvent. I also know not to mix the DMSO/SN with water at all. There's also the possibility of taking the SN via DMSO skin application, which maybe makes it look even more like an accident.
Any insight in this regard (the obviousness of cyanosis and methemoglobinemia several days after death)? Ideally, even if methemoglobinemia is detected, it'll look like an accident, like I took a dodgy electrolyte drink or something, or used DMSO to relieve muscle aches.
Discussion encouraged. Thanks, all. I really appreciate this community!
I don't want to die. But I need to die.
But for how long after death is the cyanosis really noticeable?
I've long had a fantasy of peacefully CTB somewhere in the wilderness, where it would be unlikely (although, never impossible) for my corpse to be found in less than a few days, ideally a week. Partly I wish to do this because I want to die in the place where I feel the most alive, the wild. But also I'm hoping my death is not 100% obviously a suicide to appearances, due to the stigma surrounding the "ultimate selfish act," general lack of empathy or understanding, potential inappropriately assumed responsibility taken on by loved ones, etc. And of course being too far from a hospital to receive treatment is appealing.
My plan is to take a cocktail of SN and DMSO (Dimethyl sulfoxide), far out in the wilderness. I'll carry a backpack and the ten essentials. I'll mix the concoction before I get far away from a trash container, where I will dispose of the original bottles for the compounds, and consume it from a nondescript glass container. My plan is to do this soon.
I know increased hiker/backpacker traffic increases the risk of early discovery, but warmer temperatures make it easier to keep the DMSO working effectively as a solvent. I also know not to mix the DMSO/SN with water at all. There's also the possibility of taking the SN via DMSO skin application, which maybe makes it look even more like an accident.
Any insight in this regard (the obviousness of cyanosis and methemoglobinemia several days after death)? Ideally, even if methemoglobinemia is detected, it'll look like an accident, like I took a dodgy electrolyte drink or something, or used DMSO to relieve muscle aches.
Discussion encouraged. Thanks, all. I really appreciate this community!
I don't want to die. But I need to die.
