Thanks for everything. I’m taking a break from here.

[Reallyreallyreally]

Hi guys. I'm feeling not bad at all for a few days now and so I don't know that I should be in here. At the moment I think I'm likely to come off as one of those insensitive folks who drives depressed folks up the wall. I'm going to try to stay out of here but I get obsessive about things so maybe not but I don't want to be a jerk so I'm really going to try.

I have my sn in my vehicle so even though I don't have the antiemetics I don't feel trapped and scared. I've gotten back to taking my meds on schedule, and I've returned to the diet that keeps my feet on the ground. Coming here has done so much to help me get the stuff in my head worked out.

I wish you all the best in what you decide to do, and I hope you find peace wherever you go. I'll be back when I hit the wall.

 

[mesohappy]

Glad to hear you are feeling better..Hope it continues and everything goes well for you.

 

[Brick In The Wall]

Hi guys. I'm feeling not bad at all for a few days now and so I don't know that I should be in here. At the moment I think I'm likely to come off as one of those insensitive folks who drives depressed folks up the wall. I'm going to try to stay out of here but I get obsessive about things so maybe not but I don't want to be a jerk so I'm really going to try.

I have my sn in my vehicle so even though I don't have the antiemetics I don't feel trapped and scared. I've gotten back to taking my meds on schedule, and I've returned to the diet that keeps my feet on the ground. Coming here has done so much to help me get the stuff in my head worked out.

I wish you all the best in what you decide to do, and I hope you find peace wherever you go. I'll be back when I hit the wall.

It's good to see people heal and recover regardless of how long it lasts. We'll be here if you ever need us. Keep your head up and keep moving forward to the best of your ability, good luck to you!

 

[Hopeindeath!]

I'm happy you are doing better.

 

[Reallyreallyreally]

UPDATE:

I deviated from my diet yesterday and feel way less amazing today emotionally. I think carbohydrates may in fact have been one of the main drivers of the state that brought me here, possibly also additives to processed and deli meats. I have all the same traumas and sensory/social issues whether or not I'm on it but for some reason they become background noise when I fuel myself in a way that works for my body. My therapist is right; it's basically medicine for me.

It took about a workweek on the diet to get from an 8 or 9 on the suicide scale to about 2.5, and one day to pop back up to about 4.5. I was going hard with the sweets and baked goods for several weeks. I've gone from No Way! to Yeah, That's An Option For Me. Maybe tomorrow or the next day I'll be back to that nice low number.

Here is the scale for anyone who missed the post I got it from.

Suicide Scale - Emmengard

We recently lost a friend to suicide. Our best friend, Megan, and us, actually made this scale together years ago. We have used it to help each other through the toughest times. When it was really bad, we could just look at each other and say “What number?” and we always knew what the other …...

emmengard.com

 

[GinaIsReady]

Best wishes to you with your turnaround.

 

[Reallyreallyreally]

I'm terrible at quitting showing up at places that I'm used to going. If I'm back to great tomorrow and I'm still there by sometime maybe Monday, I think I'm going to have to ask them to ban me.

 

[Broken Chimera]

It's nice to see people recover. I hope that things get even better for you in the future.

 

[Polly]

Happy for you if you are feeling good.

You're welcome back, even if it's just for a bad day.

If we've learned anything, it's thst there are no absolutes except what we feel is right fir us.