Thank you, and goodbye.

[takeyourshotfunboy]

To clarify, this is note a suicide note, rather the opposite.

I´ve struggled with mental illness for half a decade now. In the past month or 2, I have been going through what has probably been the worst depressive episode of my life. I´ve made half-hearted attempts before, but this time I was actually planning my own death. Reading up on methods, gathering the materials, etc. But for the last week or so, I´ve began to feel myself emerging from the depressive episode. I don´t feel happy, per se...I´m just not miserable anymore. I´ve decided that this time I will actually try to recover and get better. I don´t think it´s possible for me to ever completely recover from depression. But I can at least try. Actually reach out for help instead of isolating myself.

If you guys don´t see my on this forum for a long time, it´s probably not because I´ve CTB´d, but because I´ve haven´t.

I found an unlikely friend group in this website. I could not have asked for a more understanding and supportive community. Ironically, the people on this website have helped me more than any therapist or medication. Thank you.

 

[fightingsioux]

To clarify, this is note a suicide note, rather the opposite.

I´ve struggled with mental illness for half a decade now. In the past month or 2, I have been going through what has probably been the worst depressive episode of my life. I´ve made half-hearted attempts before, but this time I was actually planning my own death. Reading up on methods, gathering the materials, etc. But for the last week or so, I´ve began to feel myself emerging from the depressive episode. I don´t feel happy, per se...I´m just not miserable anymore. I´ve decided that this time I will actually try to recover and get better. I don´t think it´s possible for me to ever completely recover from depression. But I can at least try. Actually reach out for help instead of isolating myself.

If you guys don´t see my on this forum for a long time, it´s probably not because I´ve CTB´d, but because I´ve haven´t.

I found an unlikely friend group in this website. I could not have asked for a more understanding and supportive community. Ironically, the people on this website have helped me more than any therapist or medication. Thank you.

"Let everything happen to you
Beauty and terror
Just keep going
No feeling is final"

― Rainer Maria Rilke

 

[Stan]

Happy that you found the less permanent light at the end of the tunnel. I hope you go from strength to strength

 

[LonelyLight]

Wishing you all the luck in the world friend I hope everything works out as you hope!!

 

[MourningHeart]

I wish you good luck.
Hopefully you find the help you seek, it's worth a try.

 

[CrushedHopes]

I am glad to hear that SS helped you find solace in your final moments. Rest in peace.

 

[BleedingHeart]

"Let everything happen to you
Beauty and terror
Just keep going
No feeling is final"

― Rainer Maria Rilke

My favorite poet.
Good luck, OP. Glad you found some hope.

 

[Stan]

I am glad to hear that SS helped you find solace in your final moments. Rest in peace.

read the OP again!

 

[Crystal Labeija]

This forum is not pro-suicide. It's pro-choice. I want you to find happiness and peace by making your decision. I'm so happy, for you OP. I hope your happiness grows and your sadness fades. I hope you heal from the pain.

 

[Ratherbeskinny]

I'm happy for you and wish you well.♡

 

[CrushedHopes]

read the OP again!

Struck my post. Made a mistake. This is what happens when I read too fast.

 

[WhiteDespair]

Congrats! Best wishes and safe travels.

You are right @diaryofawimpycrow . This forum is surprising. Cool that it helped you.

 

[TimeToBiteTheDust]

Hope you get stronger every day. I'm really happy for you!

 

[okaoki]

i wish you all the best , and fight the demon within and win.

 

[Not_Quite_Dead_Yet]

True, this place is an oasis of sanity in an insane world, with a level of caring and support not easily found IRL. Wishing you all the best.

 

[not-2-b-the-answer]

To clarify, this is note a suicide note, rather the opposite.

I´ve struggled with mental illness for half a decade now. In the past month or 2, I have been going through what has probably been the worst depressive episode of my life. I´ve made half-hearted attempts before, but this time I was actually planning my own death. Reading up on methods, gathering the materials, etc. But for the last week or so, I´ve began to feel myself emerging from the depressive episode. I don´t feel happy, per se...I´m just not miserable anymore. I´ve decided that this time I will actually try to recover and get better. I don´t think it´s possible for me to ever completely recover from depression. But I can at least try. Actually reach out for help instead of isolating myself.

If you guys don´t see my on this forum for a long time, it´s probably not because I´ve CTB´d, but because I´ve haven´t.

I found an unlikely friend group in this website. I could not have asked for a more understanding and supportive community. Ironically, the people on this website have helped me more than any therapist or medication. Thank you.

I wish you the best & hope it works out for you.

 

[epic]

Very happy to hear. Good Luck Sir.
All the detractors of SS should me made to read this.

 

[falconeyes]

Another one of the few posts here that makes me happy, GOOD LUCK bro.