Testing Benzos for SN method

[blueskies3]

I took benzos and they made me blackout for hours. I was up doing things and texting people but i had no recollection. Im willing to try other drugs to see what reaction I would have. I saw someone recommend muscle relaxers. The benzos messed up my stomach pretty bad though. Worried that it wont be enough to knock me out while the SN does its job. Im probably going to take painkillers too. Along with the rest of the SN protocol. What do you guys think?

 

[dalemar]

You can try putting a couple of benzos pills under your tongue 5-10 minutes before taking the SN.
With that you can prevent upseting your stomach.
Of course as the protocol states, it would be good if you could take an AE as well.
Painkillers won't make out pass out faster, but they will create a more painless passing.

 

[blueskies3]

You can try putting a couple of benzos pills under your tongue 5-10 minutes before taking the SN.
With that you can prevent upseting your stomach.
Of course as the protocol states, it would be good if you could take an AE as well.
Painkillers won't make out pass out faster, but they will create a more painless passing.

This might be the method. The benzos only hurt my stomach after I regained consciousness so I'm not worried about it during the protocol. I'm only worried that the benzos wont be enough to knock me out. I dont want to feel my body running out of oxygen and my organs shutting down and dying. My life is so shit already I dont need the ultimate shittiest feeling which is dying and everything in my body getting fucked up and sending pain signals everywhere. Painkillers are definitely a necessity. I will do more research and also order some to test.

 

[dalemar]

This might be the method. The benzos only hurt my stomach after I regained consciousness so I'm not worried about it during the protocol. I'm only worried that the benzos wont be enough to knock me out. I dont want to feel my body running out of oxygen and my organs shutting down and dying. My life is so shit already I dont need the ultimate shittiest feeling which is dying and everything in my body getting fucked up and sending pain signals everywhere. Painkillers are definitely a necessity. I will do more research and also order some to test.

I guess in that case you don't have much to worry about.
If you follow the protocol correctly, you won't regain consciousness, so if you take a good amount of benzos, with the correct timing, you will pass out quickly.
I agree on doing more research and having all the meds tested beforehand, so you know how your body reacts.
I have been doing that as well, and all good with all of them.

 

[blueskies3]

I hate all these suicide methods. So much thinking required and confidence in yourself to know you wont mess anything up or that your body won't put up too much up a fight and that you're dying process wont be interrupted by some asshole. There has to be a better way. So much of my life is being taken up by this. I want to do it but im worried it won't work. So much time and energy for one moment. I've started rationalizing staying alive at this point by waiting for that "moment" where the universe decides to kill me off. It gives me the strength to keep taking steps towards the ultimate goal.