cantsleep04
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- Sep 9, 2023
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hello, this is my first post and i'm sorry if i'm saying too much but i am just so unwell currently. the only thing that's been on my mind lately is suicide. it's been a few years since i've felt this suicidal, but it's never been this bad. i've already planned to clean my room and to write around 20 letters to each important person in my life, seven people will get twenty letters each, making a special box for each one. i've written down everyone's phone numbers like my manager, therapist, friends, and an old teacher who saved my life many times throughout high school.
but the thing is i have zero idea how i want to go. like absolutely not a clue. i'm so scared of the pain, and truthfully, just dying. it terrifies me to the point where i'm shaking and crying because i know it's going to happen but i don't know how or when or where or literally anything at all. i think i need help navigating it all. literally any advice at all would help :( i've looked through lots of things on here but nothing is making me think "that's how i want to go" or anything. i am just lost and want to feel at peace, please help.
but the thing is i have zero idea how i want to go. like absolutely not a clue. i'm so scared of the pain, and truthfully, just dying. it terrifies me to the point where i'm shaking and crying because i know it's going to happen but i don't know how or when or where or literally anything at all. i think i need help navigating it all. literally any advice at all would help :( i've looked through lots of things on here but nothing is making me think "that's how i want to go" or anything. i am just lost and want to feel at peace, please help.
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