freedompass
Warlock
- Jan 27, 2021
- 768
I can't sleep so let me vent to you good people of SS. I sometimes lie awake in the night frozen with terror at some small sound inside or outside. I feel vulnerable as a female living alone at times not gonna lie. I wouldn't fancy my chances of fighting off an intruder either with my perma broken shoulder and upper arm, lack of fitness and zero martial arts training. Just now I kept hearing this weird and only just audible rhythmic tapping sound. Not unlike someone texting on a phone but faster, almost a creaking sound but not quite. I'm like. WTF IS THAT??? I don't know whether to be spooked or if my life is in danger, the universe is really having a laugh at my expense tonight and I can't sleep to save my life (not that I'd want to). It seems to have subsided now. No way am I opening the front door to investigate at 1am, fuck that. Ah the tapping has now been replaced by an unidentifiable rushing noise, that's fucking great. I am relieved the tapping stopped at least coz that was just plain creepy.
So you're getting my insomniac stream of consciousness from the silent night of terror where I can't put my Netflix series on or even the fan coz I have to keep listening for every noise.
Not a happy bunny. Mum is deteriorating. Son is being an utter shit to her while shunning me. Going down there tomorrow to try to get some care and support in place for her. Public transport is gonna suck with a heavy bag and I'll miss my support group. I booked an air bnb in her village this time. First time doing that. Staying in her house with my son shunning me, and no privacy was not an appealing prospect. This way I can pop down the road to see her and leave again when I need my own space.
There's no reason why this should interest any of you but I just felt the need to share as any minute a psycho sadistic murdering cannibal necrophile could walk in on me, right? Please check in and say hello as I ctb by night stalker. Hugs to my fellow suicidals
So you're getting my insomniac stream of consciousness from the silent night of terror where I can't put my Netflix series on or even the fan coz I have to keep listening for every noise.
Not a happy bunny. Mum is deteriorating. Son is being an utter shit to her while shunning me. Going down there tomorrow to try to get some care and support in place for her. Public transport is gonna suck with a heavy bag and I'll miss my support group. I booked an air bnb in her village this time. First time doing that. Staying in her house with my son shunning me, and no privacy was not an appealing prospect. This way I can pop down the road to see her and leave again when I need my own space.
There's no reason why this should interest any of you but I just felt the need to share as any minute a psycho sadistic murdering cannibal necrophile could walk in on me, right? Please check in and say hello as I ctb by night stalker. Hugs to my fellow suicidals