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nuclearsnake
Student
- Jul 11, 2018
- 145
It really pisses me off that you can't talk to other people without risking being put in a hospital against your will. I think about it daily, literally non-stop. I wake up disappointed and go to sleep dreading the next day. I have two ropes and three disposable grills. I could do it anytime.
Sometimes when I think that maybe I don't want to do it I stop and realize that I can't tell anyone because they'll either ignore me, reply with LOL ME TOO or just put me away by calling the police on me. What the fuck.
Sometimes I honestly just want someone to be there for me and maybe give me a hug but there's literally no one on this fucking planet that will do that. I fucking hate hearing that you are not alone because yes, you are and nobody fucking cares about people like us until we have finally offed ourselves. And then it's a big surprise like there isn't a problem with how society and mental health systems handle this issue.
I for one would rather be dead than sit in a hospital again.
Sometimes when I think that maybe I don't want to do it I stop and realize that I can't tell anyone because they'll either ignore me, reply with LOL ME TOO or just put me away by calling the police on me. What the fuck.
Sometimes I honestly just want someone to be there for me and maybe give me a hug but there's literally no one on this fucking planet that will do that. I fucking hate hearing that you are not alone because yes, you are and nobody fucking cares about people like us until we have finally offed ourselves. And then it's a big surprise like there isn't a problem with how society and mental health systems handle this issue.
I for one would rather be dead than sit in a hospital again.