Venting Surrendering and making peace

[Journeytoletgo]

No more anger, resentment, emotional pain, regrets. I am making complete peace that it wasn't meant to be for me in this existence. I am surrendering no longer a slave to my pain, no longer a slave to my past as it was all out of my control out of naivety and pain. I forgive myself. When I leave I want to be at total peace in my final moments. At least I deserve that in my last moments.

I'm making complete peace that it wasn't in the cards for me. I hope those left behind can understand this and accept I'm out of all emotional pain. And accept I'm going to be no longer suffering. I want them to go on in their lives knowing there was nothing they could have done and make peace please and let me be at peace with my choice. As I gaze into the future all I see is emotional
Up and downs, depression, anxiety, loneliness and misery. I accept my ugliness however I didn't choose it and I don't want it. I reject this life, as it will be low quality and not fulfilling. You cannot understand this because my experience is my own. As I leave everyone behind I hope you all live for yourselves truly and keep me dearly in your heart that I am finally in peace.

 

[Midgardsorm]

Life is just like a game of poker. We play the hand we were dealt. Sometimes, it's just impossible to win the game, there is no bluffing in life.
The only rational move is to Fold.

 

[Pluto]

I feel similarly. It is a wonderful thing to be able to leave this world in a state of acceptance, using rational reasoning, rather than being driven by wanting to punish others or feelings of contempt for the world. Being at peace is important. I still struggle with it because there's no support or understanding from the outside world.

 

[Makko]

Life is just like a game of poker. We play the hand we were dealt. Sometimes, it's just impossible to win the game, there is no bluffing in life.
The only rational move is to Fold.

 

[Anxieyote]

No shame in calling it quits. People don't realize how preferable death sounds in the face of constant suffering. Your choice is sensible.

 

[TheAmazingCriswell]

Life is just like a game of poker. We play the hand we were dealt. Sometimes, it's just impossible to win the game, there is no bluffing in life.
The only rational move is to Fold.

I found this eloquent variant in the signature of a user in an old thread:

"Jack London once said that 'Life is not a matter of holding good cards, but sometimes, playing a poor hand well.' Well, any poker player can tell you that sometimes playing well requires you to fold."

Note that London's quote is sometimes also attributed to R.L. Stevenson.

 

[FuneralCry]

I have also in my own way, made peace with my decision. This life is not meant for me and I have accepted that fact. It is perfectly understandable not wanting to suffer anymore. It is our lives and we have the right to decide what is best for ourselves. I wish you the best.

 

[Journeytoletgo]

I have also in my own way, made peace with my decision. This life is not meant for me and I have accepted that fact. It is perfectly understandable not wanting to suffer anymore. It is our lives and we have the right to decide what is best for ourselves. I wish you the best.

I have to agree. I experienced everything I wanted to and have no desire left to pursue anything else. Everything else seems like an empty mundane task/goal that I no longer care about

 

[death137]

I've also made peace with my ugliness but I want to ctb soon so I won't deal with this hell for long.

Life isn't what you make of it but what you are dealt with.

 

[Journeytoletgo]

I've also made peace with my ugliness but I want to ctb soon so I won't deal with this hell for long.

Life isn't what you make of it but what you are dealt with.

same bro, and you know what makes me angry that yeah I knew I was depressed since age 14 because of my looks, I'm angry that I was naive and allowed people to take advantage of me because of it. I wish I was more wise then however whatever that's the past. Now that I'm older I have battle scars and now that I see the world as it is, as it's based on the superficial for procreation people will say it isn't but it's the truth, liars are comfortable with keeping people contained in their misery so they can benefit as a resource or off your energy. I mean you read my post here. I no longer have desire for it. There is no mystery in the world anymore after these traumas.

What's the point of continuing when you will end up lonely in the end? It seems like a journey fated for pain. If I known these things younger I could have navigated the world differently being an unattractive woman and avoided men until I had my own success. But I digress. Now I lost all motivation for everything.

 

[Forgotten]

Your post made my eyes teary, that's exactly how I feel and how I wanna go as well. I was sort of briefly clinging to hope this last year, but I've once again accepted my fate and feel at peace, just really waiting for the end to come now.

 

[demuic]

It's nice that you will be able to do that. I will have nothing but anger and sadness because I'm completely disgusted with the world and I'm okay with that. The only way I'll have peace is when I'm dead.

 

[eternalmelancholy]

What's the point of continuing when you will end up lonely in the end? It seems like a journey fated for pain.

This is a good point. If you see your bleak future ahead then why carry on? This is like being stuck on a sinking ship but you are too scared to jump overboard. Death is coming for you regardless. At least this way you will avoid future pain and humiliation.

Your post made my eyes teary, that's exactly how I feel and how I wanna go as well. I was sort of briefly clinging to hope this last year, but I've once again accepted my fate and feel at peace, just really waiting for the end to come now.

I haven't found peace but I am starting to come around the realization that it just wasn't in the cards for me. Not all lives are worth living. Unfortunately that had to be me.

 

[viclord]

I really feel identified with this. Good luck with your plans. I hope you can find the peace you need…

 

[Midgardsorm]

I just stopped fighting against the pain, the sadness, the depression and let these things kill me slowly as they always did. Now I'm just letting it finished the job.

 

[Journeytoletgo]

I cannot wait for my sweet peace should have did this in high school

 

[Kennish]

Life is just like a game of poker. We play the hand we were dealt. Sometimes, it's just impossible to win the game, there is no bluffing in life.
The only rational move is to Fold.

I really like this

 

[Journeytoletgo]

I stopped living for myself years ago. Why was I so naive to think people care when know one does? That I had to look out for myself

 

[Journeytoletgo]

I'm at peace with my choice now it doesn't even bother me anymore. It's no longer an emotional choice it's rational one

 

[Journeytoletgo]

Very soon

 

[Maaizr]

Very soon

endless blessings to you, im so sorry that things have lead to this i fucking hate this world.. may your heart+soul know eternal peace and rest wherever it goes, bro

 

[Journeytoletgo]

endless blessings to you, im so sorry that things have lead to this i fucking hate this world.. may your heart+soul know eternal peace and rest wherever it goes, bro

Yeah bro this world is shit for some of us. I hope you find peace to no matter your choice