When I was very young I always wanted to live in the US. I kind of admired their lifestyle. Most music I have listened to came from the US, I ate a lot of unhealthy stuff to that time and the US was kind of the country which was famous for unhealthy food. I always was fascinated by their huge entertainment events with so many celebrities.
This should not sound too critical but my viewpoint fundamentally changed. I began to eat healthy and to question the entertainment industry. The huge inequality that comes along with having so many rich celebrities. DFW described the US as one huge shopping mall. In my opinion this does not apply only to the US. But I think America is for many other nations a role model in these instances (for example for the entertainment and music industry). The first new trends often come from the US. The good and the bad one's.
I would have liked to hear @TheHatedOne aka averagegameenjoyer's opinion on this. He liked many of my threads where I was critical about the US. I miss him.
Though we were not that close.
I just began to dislike this notion of buying happiness. I tried to do that when I was younger. I bought a lot of unnecessary stuff and ate unbelievably unhealthy food. But this isn't some sort of freedom as advertisements portray it. This is slavery to your most primitive instincts. Higher goods can be achieved by devotion and discipline. Though obviously we should not fully suppress our primitive insticts. We should be self-aware about our decisions and be self-conscious when we decide for this or that path. I really try this a lot in order to deal better with my bipolar disorder or OCD. I want to understand how my mind wants to deceive me. I analyze it but my mind is way more fucked than all my analyses or coping skills could ever compensate.
The trial to buy me happiness always left me innerly empty and it just did not feel right. In the future I will have quite the opposite situation. I will have to live in poverty and can barely buy anything. This is how cynical my life is. The joy often was only superficial and shallow. Eating cheap extremely unhealthy food makes you feel good for about 30 seconds. But after it you feel guilt, shame and self-hatred. At least this was my experience. It was way too easy for me to get things. I absolutely had no impulse control. This changed a lot when I grew older. And I switched in the other extreme.
I just hate most advertisements. Beautiful young people eating shit or buying the latest smartphone just to show here I have got it. Now I feel superior to you. This is all perverted. Still we cannot resist and we partake in their game. The whole industry tries to exploit vulnerable people for example with gacha games and lootboxes. This is all so sick. And by the way I am not saying socialism is the better solution. But we have to develop a healthy relation to capitalism and reflect on our behavior. This will never happen I know. Personally I am not important enough to change anything. But if everybody thinks that way there will be never a change. On the other hand people are too distracted by Netflix etc. to think critically in which rat race they are in. It is easier not to question how things work.
This should not sound too critical but my viewpoint fundamentally changed. I began to eat healthy and to question the entertainment industry. The huge inequality that comes along with having so many rich celebrities. DFW described the US as one huge shopping mall. In my opinion this does not apply only to the US. But I think America is for many other nations a role model in these instances (for example for the entertainment and music industry). The first new trends often come from the US. The good and the bad one's.
I would have liked to hear @TheHatedOne aka averagegameenjoyer's opinion on this. He liked many of my threads where I was critical about the US. I miss him.
Though we were not that close.
I just began to dislike this notion of buying happiness. I tried to do that when I was younger. I bought a lot of unnecessary stuff and ate unbelievably unhealthy food. But this isn't some sort of freedom as advertisements portray it. This is slavery to your most primitive instincts. Higher goods can be achieved by devotion and discipline. Though obviously we should not fully suppress our primitive insticts. We should be self-aware about our decisions and be self-conscious when we decide for this or that path. I really try this a lot in order to deal better with my bipolar disorder or OCD. I want to understand how my mind wants to deceive me. I analyze it but my mind is way more fucked than all my analyses or coping skills could ever compensate.
The trial to buy me happiness always left me innerly empty and it just did not feel right. In the future I will have quite the opposite situation. I will have to live in poverty and can barely buy anything. This is how cynical my life is. The joy often was only superficial and shallow. Eating cheap extremely unhealthy food makes you feel good for about 30 seconds. But after it you feel guilt, shame and self-hatred. At least this was my experience. It was way too easy for me to get things. I absolutely had no impulse control. This changed a lot when I grew older. And I switched in the other extreme.
I just hate most advertisements. Beautiful young people eating shit or buying the latest smartphone just to show here I have got it. Now I feel superior to you. This is all perverted. Still we cannot resist and we partake in their game. The whole industry tries to exploit vulnerable people for example with gacha games and lootboxes. This is all so sick. And by the way I am not saying socialism is the better solution. But we have to develop a healthy relation to capitalism and reflect on our behavior. This will never happen I know. Personally I am not important enough to change anything. But if everybody thinks that way there will be never a change. On the other hand people are too distracted by Netflix etc. to think critically in which rat race they are in. It is easier not to question how things work.
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