Summers gone

[NyxCascade]

Leave me out to dry and rot
Obviously i cry a lot
Want me to be what i am not
Stuck in my head
I try a lot
I cant quiet my thoughts
Dont let them out this pandoras box
I ruined my wedding
Now i wish I had a rope
So i could still tie the knot
Leave my body cold as the north
Hanging from the ceiling fan
Spinning in circles
Die young
Leave a beautiful corpse
I know that its selfish but it aint to hurt you
I needed some peace from the war in my head
Ive been fighting for 20 years
Way too much PTSD to smile about anything
Even if i had veneers
Only therapy thats working is when im on this microphone with my engineer
These songs are the only way that I can communicate with you when im no longer here
And fear of loneliness is solely responsible for why i ran everyone away
Searching for paradise when I was already in it is why i got took away
All i ask is that if I make it to heaven from this life
I dont have to press reply
All im asking you is after a life of sinning if its ever too late to pray
Leave me out to dry and rot
Obviously i cry a lot
Want me to be what i am not
Stuck in my head
I try a lot