Suicide tonight

[jussrav]

I so sick and tired of my life. Its getting worse and worse. My mum is of no use either. When I need help advice assistance they never give it. Let me make my decisions and then watch my life get worse and then suicidal. Then she gives advice but a bit too late. I was like mum you never help when you are supposed to. Even during covid she never supported me. When I got covid she didnt even ask how I was. It is this that gets people suicidal because there was no support from the beginning. Then they just blame you. I hate my life everyday is getting worse. I would love to hang myself tonight. I think I will try it I've had enough of my shit life. I havent slept for 4 days. I hate waking up hourly I feel sick I cant seem to eat. My headaches keep coming. I hate how I am. Its awful.

 

[Aries]

OhhhI wish you success❤❤❤

 

[アホペンギン]

I'm sorry you're dealing with such a situation, your mother is terrible for not even asking how you are when you're visibly very sick and not supporting you one bit. Its terrible how we are blamed for being in these dire situations where we yearn to ctb and we get blamed for it all, its obviously not our faults if anyone actually paid attention and put some effort into figuring out as to why we're like this.

I also feel the same as you right now, I can't bring myself to get out of bed and since yesterday I smashed my head against the wall, I have a terrible headache right now. I'd love to hang myself tonight as well, but obviously I can't. I wish you the best with your plans and hopefully you find the peace you deserve. Best wishes.

 

[jussrav]

I'm sorry you're dealing with such a situation, your mother is terrible for not even asking how you are when you're visibly very sick and not supporting you one bit. Its terrible how we are blamed for being in these dire situations where we yearn to ctb and we get blamed for it all, its obviously not our faults if anyone actually paid attention and put some effort into figuring out as to why we're like this.

I also feel the same as you right now, I can't bring myself to get out of bed and since yesterday I smashed my head against the wall, I have a terrible headache right now. I'd love to hang myself tonight as well, but obviously I can't. I wish you the best with your plans and hopefully you find the peace you deserve. Best wishes.

You say obviously u can't. Is that because you want to live? If it is then no sense staying on these sites and start looking for ways to get better. I know I am too far gone. I see no improvement ever. My life is ruined since covid. I've gone so low I don't recognise myself. Half the time I am not even on this planet. When people talk I cannot comprehend what they are saying. I look terrible with panda eyes, I walk around in fear. Lost and in my own world. I just look at how bad things are. I dont want to be blind aswell by hanging or a vegetable I was going to try sn. But I cant even get that

 

[アホペンギン]

You say obviously u can't. Is that because you want to live? If it is then no sense staying on these sites and start looking for ways to get better. I know I am too far gone. I see no improvement ever. My life is ruined since covid. I've gone so low I don't recognise myself. Half the time I am not even on this planet. When people talk I cannot comprehend what they are saying. I look terrible with panda eyes, I walk around in fear. Lost and in my own world. I just look at how bad things are. I dont want to be blind aswell by hanging or a vegetable I was going to try sn. But I cant even get that

I said I obviously can't because people will be visiting tonight and I don't have a good ligature.

I'm sorry your life was ruined so much since covid, its horrible how people go so low to the point where they see no other choice than to ctb.

 

[jussrav]

I said I obviously can't because people will be visiting tonight and I don't have a good ligature.

I'm sorry your life was ruined so much since covid, its horrible how people go so low to the point where they see no other choice than to ctb.

Yes its ruined

 

[FuneralCry]

I hope you find freedom from your suffering, best of luck with your plans.

 

[jussrav]

I'm sorry you're dealing with such a situation, your mother is terrible for not even asking how you are when you're visibly very sick and not supporting you one bit. Its terrible how we are blamed for being in these dire situations where we yearn to ctb and we get blamed for it all, its obviously not our faults if anyone actually paid attention and put some effort into figuring out as to why we're like this.

I also feel the same as you right now, I can't bring myself to get out of bed and since yesterday I smashed my head against the wall, I have a terrible headache right now. I'd love to hang myself tonight as well, but obviously I can't. I wish you the best with your plans and hopefully you find the peace you deserve. Best wishes.

Hope your head is ok. Was it deliberate. I just wish I could leave this planet. But its scary I took sone ldn last night I was losing my sight and was about to pass out so ctb is not easy.

 

[アホペンギン]

Hope your head is ok. Was it deliberate. I just wish I could leave this planet. But its scary I took sone ldn last night I was losing my sight and was about to pass out so ctb is not easy.

My head is fine, just very bruised and bleeding yesterday but it stopped.

I wish I could leave this planet as well, its all I want, I wish it was easier to ctb, i'd be gone by now…

 

[jussrav]

My head is fine, just very bruised and bleeding yesterday but it stopped.

I wish I could leave this planet as well, its all I want, I wish it was easier to ctb, i'd be gone by now…

Same

 

[MatthieuFrederickW]

You say obviously u can't. Is that because you want to live? If it is then no sense staying on these sites and start looking for ways to get better. I know I am too far gone. I see no improvement ever. My life is ruined since covid. I've gone so low I don't recognise myself. Half the time I am not even on this planet. When people talk I cannot comprehend what they are saying. I look terrible with panda eyes, I walk around in fear. Lost and in my own world. I just look at how bad things are. I dont want to be blind aswell by hanging or a vegetable I was going to try sn. But I cant even get that

How would hanging make you blind?

 

[Captive_Mind515]

We'll get there in the end guys. I think it's a process, you gotta put in the work and the prep and get your head in the right place. When the time is right, we'll break free.

 

[jussrav]

How would hanging make you blind?

Maybe brain damage. That can cause sight loss.

Maybe brain damage. That can cause sight loss.

If it wont then I can do peacefully thats my only fear in life

Maybe brain damage. That can cause sight loss.

If it wont then I can do peacefully thats my only fear in life

 

[MatthieuFrederickW]

Maybe brain damage. That can cause sight loss.

If it wont then I can do peacefully thats my only fear in life

If it wont then I can do peacefully thats my only fear in life
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What's the likelihood of injuries happening after a

Maybe brain damage. That can cause sight loss.

If it wont then I can do peacefully thats my only fear in life

If it wont then I can do peacefully thats my only fear in life
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I'm not so sure how trustworthy this information is considering those in certain sports like martial arts have Had many blood chokeholds done to them without any long term damage done. Do you know any instances where those who've been blood choked many times have injuries like this? I don't think it's likely I'd cause an injury like damaging carotid arteries by blood choke myself, but I don't know for sure. Makes me worried to test now.

 

[アホペンギン]

I'm not so sure how trustworthy this information is considering those in certain sports like martial arts have Had many blood chokeholds done to them without any long term damage done. Do you know any instances where those who've been blood choked many times have injuries like this? I don't think it's likely I'd cause an injury like damaging carotid arteries by blood choke myself, but I don't know for sure. Makes me worried to test now.

Thats because they're not left staying bloodchoked for hours and hours, just a few seconds doesn't do much, the brain cells start dying after maybe 10-20 seconds, you wouldn't practice for that long, at least in my case I wouldn't.

 

[MatthieuFrederickW]

Does anyone know of any instance of any sportsperson who has had many blood chokes done on them who has sustained injuries that caused stroke, brain damage, damaged arteries, or even death, etc?

Thats because they're not left staying bloodchoked for hours and hours, just a few seconds doesn't do much, the brain cells start dying after maybe 10-20 seconds, you wouldn't practice for that long, at least in my case I wouldn't.

Yeah. Must admit it made me worried about trying to blood choke on myself lol

 

[jussrav]

What's the likelihood of injuries happening after a

I'm not so sure how trustworthy this information is considering those in certain sports like martial arts have Had many blood chokeholds done to them without any long term damage done. Do you know any instances where those who've been blood choked many times have injuries like this? I don't think it's likely I'd cause an injury like damaging carotid arteries by blood choke myself, but I don't know for sure. Makes me worried to test now.

So literally tried to hang myself outside my flat on the staircase and my mother who usually never comes walks in 5 minutes later to come see . I certainly know how to time it. I think will have to find some woods.

 

[MatthieuFrederickW]

So literally tried to hang myself outside my flat on the staircase and my mother who usually never comes walks in 5 minutes later to come see . I certainly know how to time it. I think will have to find some woods.

That's the absolute worst thing that could happen is if someone interrupts the hanging process and rescues you after falling unconscious for several minutes.

 

[DeathSleep]

I wish you luck. I hope you find your peace.

 

[NorthernMonkey]

I hope you are ok. While I would never underestimate anyone's will to die, I know there is a tiny part of each of us that wishes it was different. I wish it was different for you just for today.

 

[jussrav]

I hope you are ok. While I would never underestimate anyone's will to die, I know there is a tiny part of each of us that wishes it was different. I wish it was different for you just for today.

I wish it would be but it never will itvhusr gets worse and worse. The problems in mind never stop.