Suicide to escape the future

[sserafim]

Why do you want to ctb? I want to commit suicide to escape the future, and escape myself

 

[SN drinker]

To escape all three (past, present, future)

 

[Ashe]

To escape the pain I live through everyday, to be rid of the heartbreak that I've been put through relentlessly, to finally be free from existence without purpose and to no longer mourn the passing of my younger self who died already a very long time ago.

 

[sserafim]

To escape all three (past, present, future)

Yeah same, but I especially want to escape my future. I don't see a bright future for myself, or even a future at all. I'm pretty sure that things will only get worse from here, and I want to ctb before they do

 

[FuneralCry]

It certainly does sound so appealing to fall into a dreamless and eternal sleep to escape from all future suffering, thinking of what lies ahead fills me with dread. Under no circumstances could I ever wish to decay from age in this cruel existence where there is no limit as to how much I can suffer, there is no point to existing.

 

[Old Friend]

Part of my reason for wanting to ctb is that I see my predicament getting worse over time.

 

[LaVieEnRose]

That"s the idea...

 

[sserafim]

Part of my reason for wanting to ctb is that I see my predicament getting worse over time.

Yeah it's only going to get worse from here so why not check out before it actually does

It certainly does sound so appealing to fall into a dreamless and eternal sleep to escape from all future suffering, thinking of what lies ahead fills me with dread. Under no circumstances could I ever wish to decay from age in this cruel existence where there is no limit as to how much I can suffer, there is no point to existing.

Yeah same, I wish I could sleep forever and never have to wake up again. Every day I hate the fact that I inevitably wake up to face another day. I really wish that I could die in my sleep someday…

I'm also filled with dread about the future. I don't even like thinking about it because I don't see a future for myself. I don't see myself ever becoming a real adult, it's like I know I'm meant to die young and never live out a "full life"

 

[Lookoutbelow]

Future

 

[Final-push123]

I want to escape the complete collapse of the biosphere. I don't want to live through the resources wars to come

 

[Unknown21]

Same, i don't have any future, my life get worse constantly.

 

[Ravel]

I cant function as a normal human being, I dont belong in this world

 

[sserafim]

Same, i don't have any future, my life get worse constantly.

Same, it's honestly a hopeless situation. There's no light at the end of the tunnel

I cant function as a normal human being, I dont belong in this world

Me neither, I don't even feel like a real human being. I feel like an alien

 

[Teleftaía Anapnoí]

I want to escape the complete collapse of the biosphere. I don't want to live through the resources wars to come

Yeah, me too man

 

[whatsmynameagain?]

God, the future just seems so bleak for me. Very much just want to abandon it all.

 

[Jan1193]

I"ll cite all the reasons you have done here, and add this: To escape from my pain and any other pain and tragedy would be pass in this world with unlimited posibilities for suffering, from the ecological damage, the wars and the decadence till my own health

 

[Deleted member 65988]

Rather much the same as a reason to ctb for myself.

 

[darkenmydoorstep]

Why do you want to ctb? I want to commit suicide to escape the future, and escape myself

1) I'm abused almost daily by my son (additional needs, he struggles), spat at, hit, sworn at. Hard to take.

2) the council makes it harder by denying us stuff he needs - currently he can't go to school because he doesn't have an escort to take him and I refuse because of the abuse in an enclosed space.

3) I don't love his dad and the man I do love is so emotionally damaged it could never work. Feels like heartache every day. Loving someone who won't let themself love you back.

4) I can't leave the living arrangement until my son is an adult because I'd have to live with the guilt of leaving my son. He wants to stay in his house. His dad won't leave and once threatened to make my life a 'living hell' if we split up.

5) I loved my cat, he was my one solace (dead now) but my son has anxiety around animals so I can't get another.

6) I don't like the world. Prefer animals over people and it feels as though the world is getting worse.

7) Even if things get better, let's face it it's only a matter of time before something else happens because that's life. You survive one thing to be faced with another. It's like a bloody assault course.

 

[alterationitfinds]

literally the future is scarier than anything i've ever felt in the history of ever. the idea that it can continue on this downward spiral is awful, it makes me want to beat it to it. everyone around me makes it obvious that they don't like me and i don't blame them, i'm not who i was and it's painful to try to be. i just want to end my life on my own terms and not end up all alone with nobody to leave a note to.

 

[Hdxp1]

I have no future prospects at all. No passions, no interests, no hobbies, no goals, no dreams, no motivation for anything … Absolutely nothing. I have nothing to offer for anyone.

I just don't want to be alive at all. I can't even imagine myself past the age of 25. I am simply not fit for this world, nor was I ever meant to be here. It demands so much of me that I am unable to provide. I'd rather be dead. This world brings me so much anxiety on a daily basis that I genuinely wish I could fall dead at any moment than be alive anymore.

The only reason I've lived for this long is because of the internet allowing me to escape into its warm comforting embrace than face the harsh reality of our modern enterprise.

It upsets me greatly to think of how hard they make it for us to take our own lives using safe and peaceful methods (namely barbiturates and nembutal) becoming extremely difficult to acquire. If I had easy access to any of these substances I would've already used them to free myself of this unending nightmare.