UPDATE i have it now fully planned out. It will be in an undisclosed remote area and will be by carbon monoxide posining instead of hanging as that is less painfull. It will be done as soon as the campsites open around March. Now it is planned i feel much better and just need to action it.
The reason i want to CTB is I have autism, jobless and have failed uni twice. People have fallen out with me because they cant help me which they want to do, despite me not wanting them to help me. I am getting no support from the the mental health teams and they dont listen. The usual revolving door. This world is not for me and i want to catch the bus.