Discussion Suicide notes

[Armadillo]

I thought I would create this thread so everyone can post the suicide note of someone so everyone can read it/comment it.

If you can, give some context explaining who the person was and why he/she probabily did it.

I'll start with Mayhem singer's "Dead" note.

"Excuse the blood, but I have slit my wrists and neck. It was the intention that I would die in the woods so that it would take a few days before I was possibly found. I belong in the woods and have always done so. No one will understand the reason for this anyway. To give some semblance of an explanation I'm not a human, this is just a dream and soon I will awake. It was too cold and the blood kept clotting, plus my new knife is too dull. If I don't succeed dying to the knife I will blow all the shit out of my skull. Yet I do not know. I left all my lyrics by "Let the good times roll"—plus the rest of the money. Whoever finds it gets the fucking thing. As a last salutation may I present "Life Eternal". Do whatever you want with the fucking thing. / Pelle.

I didn't come up with this now, but seventeen years ago."

Mayhem was a Norwegian Black Metal band whose singer Pelle "Dead" Ohlin committed suicide on the 8th of April 1991 first by slitting his wrist and throat with a knife and then shooting himself in the temple with a shotgun in his apartment.
Dead was often described as a sad, introvert, kid with autistic traits. According to some people he may have suffered from Cotard's delusion (believing to be dead), he was obsessed with death and used to self-harm (even on-stage).

The body was found by Euronymous, another band member, who took a photo wich then used as the band's new album cover, took some pieces of the skull and made some necklaces with them and allegedly ate some parts of Dead's brain.

 

[Smilla]

Holy shit

 

[Armadillo]

Holy shit

I know, right? The '90s Norwegian Black Metal scene was pretty lit.

 

[Xerxes]

Yeah Dead really lived up to his name and he was obsessed with death. He truly didn't give two fucks about the world.

A suicide note written by a teenage boy who killed himself with a gunshot to the temple after being accused of molesting a girl, which later proved to be false.

"Problem solved, goodbye"

 

[15dec]

Yeah Dead really lived up to his name and he was obsessed with death. He truly didn't give two fucks about the world.

A suicide note written by a teenage boy who killed himself with a gunshot to the temple after being accused of molesting a girl, which later proved to be false.

"Problem solved, goodbye"

God, that's horribly tragic. I hate hearing about stuff like that, poor guy probably went through hell before he ctb

 

[Armadillo]

Well, nothing original but this is Kurt Cobain suicide note.

"
To Boddah

Speaking from the tongue of an experienced simpleton who obviously would rather be an emasculated, infantile complain-ee. This note should be pretty easy to understand.

All the warnings from the punk rock 101 courses over the years, since my first introduction to the, shall we say, ethics involved with independence and the embracement of your community has proven to be very true. I haven't felt the excitement of listening to as well as creating music along with reading and writing for too many years now. I feel guity beyond words about these things.

For example when we're back stage and the lights go out and the manic roar of the crowds begins., it doesn't affect me the way in which it did for Freddie Mercury, who seemed to love, relish in the the love and adoration from the crowd which is something I totally admire and envy. The fact is, I can't fool you, any one of you. It simply isn't fair to you or me. The worst crime I can think of would be to rip people off by faking it and pretending as if I'm having 100% fun. Sometimes I feel as if I should have a punch-in time clock before I walk out on stage. I've tried everything within my power to appreciate it (and I do,God, believe me I do, but it's not enough). I appreciate the fact that I and we have affected and entertained a lot of people. It must be one of those narcissists who only appreciate things when they're gone. I'm too sensitive. I need to be slightly numb in order to regain the enthusiasms I once had as a child.

On our last 3 tours, I've had a much better appreciation for all the people I've known personally, and as fans of our music, but I still can't get over the frustration, the guilt and empathy I have for everyone. There's good in all of us and I think I simply love people too much, so much that it makes me feel too fucking sad. The sad little, sensitive, unappreciative, Pisces, Jesus man. Why don't you just enjoy it? I don't know!

I have a goddess of a wife who sweats ambition and empathy and a daughter who reminds me too much of what i used to be, full of love and joy, kissing every person she meets because everyone is good and will do her no harm. And that terrifies me to the point to where I can barely function. I can't stand the thought of Frances becoming the miserable, self-destructive, death rocker that I've become.

I have it good, very good, and I'm grateful, but since the age of seven, I've become hateful towards all humans in general. Only because it seems so easy for people to get along that have empathy. Only because I love and feel sorry for people too much I guess.

Thank you all from the pit of my burning, nauseous stomach for your letters and concern during the past years. I'm too much of an erratic, moody baby! I don't have the passion anymore, and so remember, it's better to burn out than to fade away.

Peace, love, empathy.
Kurt Cobain

Frances and Courtney, I'll be at your alter.
Please keep going Courtney, for Frances.
For her life, which will be so much happier without me.

I LOVE YOU, I LOVE YOU!"

 

[Armadillo]

Well, nothing original but this is Kurt Cobain suicide note.

"
To Boddah

Speaking from the tongue of an experienced simpleton who obviously would rather be an emasculated, infantile complain-ee. This note should be pretty easy to understand.

All the warnings from the punk rock 101 courses over the years, since my first introduction to the, shall we say, ethics involved with independence and the embracement of your community has proven to be very true. I haven't felt the excitement of listening to as well as creating music along with reading and writing for too many years now. I feel guity beyond words about these things.

For example when we're back stage and the lights go out and the manic roar of the crowds begins., it doesn't affect me the way in which it did for Freddie Mercury, who seemed to love, relish in the the love and adoration from the crowd which is something I totally admire and envy. The fact is, I can't fool you, any one of you. It simply isn't fair to you or me. The worst crime I can think of would be to rip people off by faking it and pretending as if I'm having 100% fun. Sometimes I feel as if I should have a punch-in time clock before I walk out on stage. I've tried everything within my power to appreciate it (and I do,God, believe me I do, but it's not enough). I appreciate the fact that I and we have affected and entertained a lot of people. It must be one of those narcissists who only appreciate things when they're gone. I'm too sensitive. I need to be slightly numb in order to regain the enthusiasms I once had as a child.

On our last 3 tours, I've had a much better appreciation for all the people I've known personally, and as fans of our music, but I still can't get over the frustration, the guilt and empathy I have for everyone. There's good in all of us and I think I simply love people too much, so much that it makes me feel too fucking sad. The sad little, sensitive, unappreciative, Pisces, Jesus man. Why don't you just enjoy it? I don't know!

I have a goddess of a wife who sweats ambition and empathy and a daughter who reminds me too much of what i used to be, full of love and joy, kissing every person she meets because everyone is good and will do her no harm. And that terrifies me to the point to where I can barely function. I can't stand the thought of Frances becoming the miserable, self-destructive, death rocker that I've become.

I have it good, very good, and I'm grateful, but since the age of seven, I've become hateful towards all humans in general. Only because it seems so easy for people to get along that have empathy. Only because I love and feel sorry for people too much I guess.

Thank you all from the pit of my burning, nauseous stomach for your letters and concern during the past years. I'm too much of an erratic, moody baby! I don't have the passion anymore, and so remember, it's better to burn out than to fade away.

Peace, love, empathy.
Kurt Cobain

Frances and Courtney, I'll be at your alter.
Please keep going Courtney, for Frances.
For her life, which will be so much happier without me.

I LOVE YOU, I LOVE YOU!"

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This is from Jhon Thomas Doyle, golden gate brisge jumper.

"Absolutely no reason except I have a toothache."

Fucking epic.

 

[Xerxes]

John Berryman, jumped off the Washington Ave. Bridge in Minnesota, wrote this letter on a back of an envelope, to be found by his wife:

"Oh my love Kate, you did all you could. I'm unemployable & a nuisance. Forget me, remarry, be happy."

 

[wxtyubidi7y]

I am fond of the suicide note left by Wendy O Williams, singer of 80s punk band The Plasmatics. She shot herself in 1998.

"The act of taking my own life is not something I am doing without a lot of thought.

I don't believe that people should take their own lives without deep and thoughtful reflection over a considerable period of time.

I do believe strongly, however, that the right to do so is one of the most fundamental rights that anyone in a free society should have.

For me much of the world makes no sense, but my feelings about what I am doing ring loud and clear to an inner ear and a place where there is no self, only calm.

Love always, Wendy."

 

[Norest4thewicked]

I thought I would create this thread so everyone can post the suicide note of someone so everyone can read it/comment it.

If you can, give some context explaining who the person was and why he/she probabily did it.

I'll start with Mayhem singer's "Dead" note.

"Excuse the blood, but I have slit my wrists and neck. It was the intention that I would die in the woods so that it would take a few days before I was possibly found. I belong in the woods and have always done so. No one will understand the reason for this anyway. To give some semblance of an explanation I'm not a human, this is just a dream and soon I will awake. It was too cold and the blood kept clotting, plus my new knife is too dull. If I don't succeed dying to the knife I will blow all the shit out of my skull. Yet I do not know. I left all my lyrics by "Let the good times roll"—plus the rest of the money. Whoever finds it gets the fucking thing. As a last salutation may I present "Life Eternal". Do whatever you want with the fucking thing. / Pelle.

I didn't come up with this now, but seventeen years ago."

Mayhem was a Norwegian Black Metal band whose singer Pelle "Dead" Ohlin committed suicide on the 8th of April 1991 first by slitting his wrist and throat with a knife and then shooting himself in the temple with a shotgun in his apartment.
Dead was often described as a sad, introvert, kid with autistic traits. According to some people he may have suffered from Cotard's delusion (believing to be dead), he was obsessed with death and used to self-harm (even on-stage).

The body was found by Euronymous, another band member, who took a photo wich then used as the band's new album cover, took some pieces of the skull and made some necklaces with them and allegedly ate some parts of Dead's brain.

Have you seen the movie Lords of Chaos? It's a dramatized biography of Mayhem. The black circle, church burnings and all. Euronymous not only took photos of his dead friend to promote the upcoming album, he also took parts of his shattered skull and put them on his necklace

 

[Pulpit2018]

Another "Fun fact" : Euronymous was later murdered by another member of his group,Varg Vikernes.

 

[Armadillo]

Have you seen the movie Lords of Chaos? It's a dramatized biography of Mayhem. The black circle, church burnings and all. Euronymous not only took photos of his dead friend to promote the upcoming album, he also took parts of his shattered skull and put them on his necklace

Maybe I will. I've only seen a documentary on the story of Dead.

Another "Fun fact" : Euronymous was later murdered by another member of his group,Varg Vikernes.

Yup. That guy has a YT channel now. Pretty boring tbh, he rants about neo-paganism, conspiracies, white nationalism and other nonsense.