Welcome, and I'm sorry that life has brought you here.
That's good advice from the other guys who have posted.
Something else that I'd like to add and what I'm planning on doing is to make a series of videos for my family using my phone. I've bought a smartphone tripod (Ā£10 from Amazon) so I can sit down in front of it.
My parents will be absolutely devastated when I die, so for them to have videos that they can replay (as opposed to just a written note) will be very comforting for them. Plus, actually hearing my tone and seeing my facial expressions are characteristics
that a written note can obviously not provide.
I was going to cover several topics, including:
- To apologise and to talk about my reasons for ending my life (even though they will know exactly why I've done it).
- To thank them for everything they've done for me and let them know that there was absolutely nothing they could do to prevent me from ending my life (they've already done far too much).
- To apologise for things and acknowledge that it's ultimately my fault that I ended up in the position I was in.
- To reminisce about all the good times and years gone by etc.
- Instructions for how to take care of my remaining affairs, my last wishes, and what I want to happen with all my stuff etc.
- What to say to people at my funeral so people don't think I'm selfish for what I've done, and what music to play at my funeral and what photos to share so people remember me for how I used to be, not what I became.
- I will also make individual ones for my brother and my two best friends.
If anyone else has any other good ideas please share, I'd love to hear them.
These are just some ideas for you, and for anybody else reading this, I haven't decided for definite yet how many I'll make. I've decided to break things up and not make just one video for my parents so that it's easier for them to separate and navigate things. Like for example, the ones I make reminiscing about the good times etc and any others that have a happier tone shall I say, will be ones that my parents will probably want to play over and over again, so to not have to skip and avoid the sad parts like they'd have to if I made just one video, will be much more comfortable for them.
With regards to the ones I make for my brother and two best friends, I'll only make one each.
I also plan on handwriting and/or typing a note as well, to my family and to my friends.
I hope this helps.