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Circles
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- Sep 3, 2018
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Welp yet another pointless post of myself complaining and blabbering. There's so many things about life and even death that we cannot control. Philosophy like stoicism will tell you we can atleast control how we react to the things we cannot control, but I call bull fucking shit on that. For one most especially if you're fucking mental like myself then you can't even control emotions or all the warped up indescribable feelings your brain nitpicks at us at every fucking angle. We didn't choose to be born, to be humans, to have this certain family, or country or region or let alone this fucking planet or universe, etc. etc. We didn't get to choose anything. And even of the options we have besides suicide are so limited it makes me want to choose suicide over any of those bullshit options cause none of it will stop the pain and suffering of existing a pointless fucked up life.... Now my mind is going blank and yet there's so much that needs to be said. Hell I typed all this shit simply because I need something anything to pass the time and fill the void but nothing ever fucking helps or fill the void. And that's just it yet another thing we cannot control which is to distract ourselves constantly day in and day out just so we don't have to face the harsh reality of how fucking painful our pointless lives are. Fucking YAAAAY. I WANT ALL THESE UNCONTROLLABLE THINGS TO FUCKING STOP and suicide is the only fucking way. FUCK