Venting Suicide is the only answer for me

[violetdevil]

I've never had a real friend because I'm so fucked up. Elementary and high school were torture, I was bullied and had nobody. I can't stand how ugly I am. I look in the mirror and see a monster. A freak. I can't drive. I stay at home most of the time, unless it's for school or work. I have no desire to do anything. I haven't gone to school in a few days because of my depression worsening. I don't like life. I have nothing and no one to look forward to. I don't want to be here any longer. I'm saving up to buy two bottles of Nembutal and antiemetics. Until then, I'll have to suffer

 

[meetapple]

Are you in college? A couple of people I know liked college more than high school.

 

[Chockles]

I feel for you. I've been sufferring physically severely for 9 months now bed ridden in agony. I've just saved up enough for N & hoping to buy next week. No one should have to suffer. We don't expect our animals to why should humans. I hope you find peace soon.

 

[violetdevil]

I'm in college and I can't stand it. The people, I can't focus on my school work either.

Are you in college? A couple of people I know liked college more than high school.

I feel for you. I've been sufferring physically severely for 9 months now bed ridden in agony. I've just saved up enough for N & hoping to buy next week. No one should have to suffer. We don't expect our animals to why should humans. I hope you find peace soon.

I agree. People who are mentally ill and can't be fixed should be able to end their own lives peacefully instead of using brutal methods such as a shotgun, train etc. Life isn't for everyone. Thank you, I hope you find peace soon as well.

 

[FuneralCry]

I understand. I do not like life either and I am tired of existing. Suicide is inevitable for me as well. I'm sorry you are suffering, life is just so horrible. I hope you find the peace you are looking for.

 

[Death is beautiful]

I hate my appearance too, I'm a freak, but more than that I don't have the courage to order a fucking N and be done with everything

 

[Snake of Eden]

Death is my only answer too. I cant improve any aspect of my life even if i wanted to. Enough is enough

 

[ikadasui]

Same. I want to flay myself if I catch a glimpse of my reflection in anything. I can't stand seeing attractive people it makes me want to jump into traffic when I'm outside and see normal people living life. I fucking despise this existence and truly wish the worst on my parents for bringing me into it! I mean they were diseased creatures that had no business procreating and now I'm just completely fucked through no fault of my god damn own it's unforgivable

 

[Journeytoletgo]

I'm sorry you're suffering and in pain. I relate to being unattractive. I wish I was more wise I would have offed myself years ago and saved myself pointless misery and panic.

 

[eternalmelancholy]

Same. I want to flay myself if I catch a glimpse of my reflection in anything. I can't stand seeing attractive people it makes me want to jump into traffic when I'm outside and see normal people living life. I fucking despise this existence and truly wish the worst on my parents for bringing me into it! I mean they were diseased creatures that had no business procreating and now I'm just completely fucked through no fault of my god damn own it's unforgivable

When I see happy families laughing and having a good time in public it triggers me to no end. I don't know what I did to deserve this life. I despise my parents for giving birth to me. If you are poor and abusive why the hell would you have kids? Just so you can beat them and torment them?

I just don't understand people, society and life itself. It feels like everyone else is living an entirely different existence than I. It is like I am not even human. I am just pure garbage. No one wonder people treat me like trash.

 

[ikadasui]

When I see happy families laughing and having a good time in public it triggers me to no end. I don't know what I did to deserve this life. I despise my parents for giving birth to me. If you are poor and abusive why the hell would you have kids? Just so you can beat them and torment them?

I just don't understand people, society and life itself. It feels like everyone else is living an entirely different existence than I. It is like I am not even human. I am just pure garbage. No one wonder people treat me like trash.

Yeah exactly. I'm adopted too which makes it even worse. I genuinely think if you have a child knowing full well you can't care for it properly you should be criminally charged. Excluding obvious cases like rape, incest and the like etc. Way too many people that are genetic dead ends just reproduce and bring in untold amounts of misery and it's fucking disgusting

 

[eternalmelancholy]

Yeah exactly. I'm adopted too which makes it even worse. I genuinely think if you have a child knowing full well you can't care for it properly you should be criminally charged. Excluding obvious cases like rape, incest and the like etc. Way too many people that are genetic dead ends just reproduce and bring in untold amounts of misery and it's fucking disgusting

You need a license or certificate for everything else in life but bringing new humans into this shit existence requires no qualifications or background checks.

Society would function better if there was a basic set of requirements to be able to have kids. People always cry that it would be unfair to people who are poor, have genetic diseases, etc. But no one gives a single thought about the poor kids who will born into shitty situations with no real hope to escape.

People need to stop being so goddamned selfish for once. Kids are not playthings. They are human beings too with needs and wants. They won't stay cute and little forever. They will grow into jaded adults who resent their irresponsible parents.

 

[Journeytoletgo]

When I see happy families laughing and having a good time in public it triggers me to no end. I don't know what I did to deserve this life. I despise my parents for giving birth to me. If you are poor and abusive why the hell would you have kids? Just so you can beat them and torment them?

I just don't understand people, society and life itself. It feels like everyone else is living an entirely different existence than I. It is like I am not even human. I am just pure garbage. No one wonder people treat me like trash.

I am so sorry for your pain. It's usually the uneducated and abused/traumatized that have children to make up for their own inadequacy they felt as children, they aren't educated enough to make choices to prevent their offspring from suffering. I'm so sorry you had to go through pain, please don't blame yourself you're a victim of parental ignorance and lack of education.

 

[avoid_slow_death]

I just hate the fact that I wasn't aborted. My Dad wanted my Mom to, but she refused. Sigh...
I wish she would have. Seriously. But, as it stands, will be giving myself a later term abortion at the end of the year. Merry Christmas everyone!

 

[eternalmelancholy]

I am so sorry for your pain. It's usually the uneducated and abused/traumatized that have children to make up for their own inadequacy they felt as children, they aren't educated enough to make choices to prevent their offspring from suffering. I'm so sorry you had to go through pain, please don't blame yourself you're a victim of parental ignorance and lack of education.

My heart breaks for everyone here. We all have our reasons and it is unfortunate we had to meet under this kind of circumstances. The shame and taboo of suicide means we have to remain silent and invisible.

At least with this website we can share our stories and experiences before we end up leaving this existence. A small consolation but it is better than nothing I suppose.

 

[MeltedJello]

I've never had a real friend because I'm so fucked up. Elementary and high school were torture, I was bullied and had nobody. I can't stand how ugly I am. I look in the mirror and see a monster. A freak. I can't drive. I stay at home most of the time, unless it's for school or work. I have no desire to do anything. I haven't gone to school in a few days because of my depression worsening. I don't like life. I have nothing and no one to look forward to. I don't want to be here any longer. I'm saving up to buy two bottles of Nembutal and antiemetics. Until then, I'll have to suffer

Life is shit. Suicide is the only answer for me too. I'm sorry you have to experience this great amount of pain & suffering. I hope you find the peace you're looking for.

 

[Ch92921]

For me suicide is THE ACTION I will commit.

You need a license or certificate for everything else in life but bringing new humans into this shit existence requires no qualifications or background checks.

Society would function better if there was a basic set of requirements to be able to have kids. People always cry that it would be unfair to people who are poor, have genetic diseases, etc. But no one gives a single thought about the poor kids who will born into shitty situations with no real hope to escape.

People need to stop being so goddamned selfish for once. Kids are not playthings. They are human beings too with needs and wants. They won't stay cute and little forever. They will grow into jaded adults who resent their irresponsible parents.

And there are these religious weirdos
produce 6-10 children. Thats sick! If every woman would do that, our society would colaps.