Suicide is the fucking answer

[killmeplz]

All I want is for it all to fucking end. Was hoping Putin and Biden would start nuclear war but I can't catch a fucking break. Effective lethal ctb methods aren't doable since democrats ruin everything in the US. I legit don't give a fuck how but I need to fucking end soon. Getting more desperate and about to totally lose it.

I'm sick of existing as a total fucking failure and loser. Despite disadvantages growing up I've had chances at a good life but ruined them all. Survived 3 ieds in Afghanistan sadly (joined hoping to die). Survived stage 4 cancer unfortunately. Crippling excessive debt pins me down, the va mental health system is a fucking joke.

Mentally checked out of life. It's over. Just waiting for my cat to die (selfishly hope she does so final despair hits and I jump in front of a train) despite loving her more than anything. Trying to encourage my gf to move on to someone who isn't completely fucking useless and can get a hard on. Praying I get into a fucked situation ending in my death. Certain id fuck up suicide and end up worse. Praying for death, injury, aids, or unwanted pregnancies for almost every pro athlete due to fucking me with bets lost bad.

Looking at using public train to do it. Doubt I'd cut my wrist or throat right. Nowhere to hang at home. Can't think of a better way ad I'd ruin som people's days on the way out.

 

[oddetoad]

Ye the Russian war was just a big psyop

They just wanted to spread fear and confusion

They would never destroy earth.. this place will exist for a long long time

 

[FuneralCry]

I hope that you eventually find the freedom you search for, I certainly hate how it's so unnecessarily difficult to cease existing on our own terms, I wish existence came with an permanent offswitch where there is the option to just instantly cease existing in peace.

 

[MatthieuFrederickW]

I can relate to having sabotaged my own life, I really should've done so much more in life, but it is what it is.

 

[F@#$]

Yeah, I've fucked my life up beyond repair. As soon as my dog dies I'm setting my exit plan in motion.

 

[ASBA999]

Totally fucked up my life as well so can relate. I need to CBT asap

 

[ChangeWaiter]

I can't definitely compete well in how much I fucked up my life.

It was sorta promising just about one and a half years ago, then i fucked it up so bad, that by now I don't see a scenario where it could flip, it only gets worse by the month, only a matter of time that i become homeless, which would be a whole new level of suffering in the country I live, homeless for so many years to go, as my body seems not to want to give up for a many years still.

 

[DeadManLiving]

The despicable nature of the human condition spawning sentient life was the Universe's greatest mistake. The other mistake is engaging the brain and thinking about it, which keeps me here in the loop instead of doing what I have to do pulling the trigger. I was on the up and up but sabotaged myself along the way. The mortality and finality of life doesn't give you any slack for do-overs. So I've got a perfectly good permanent solution to a permanent problem, just a matter of getting my ass off my bed and taking the leap. Anytime now.

 

[Lookoutbelow]

All I want is for it all to fucking end. Was hoping Putin and Biden would start nuclear war but I can't catch a fucking break. Effective lethal ctb methods aren't doable since democrats ruin everything in the US. I legit don't give a fuck how but I need to fucking end soon. Getting more desperate and about to totally lose it.

I'm sick of existing as a total fucking failure and loser. Despite disadvantages growing up I've had chances at a good life but ruined them all. Survived 3 ieds in Afghanistan sadly (joined hoping to die). Survived stage 4 cancer unfortunately. Crippling excessive debt pins me down, the va mental health system is a fucking joke.

Mentally checked out of life. It's over. Just waiting for my cat to die (selfishly hope she does so final despair hits and I jump in front of a train) despite loving her more than anything. Trying to encourage my gf to move on to someone who isn't completely fucking useless and can get a hard on. Praying I get into a fucked situation ending in my death. Certain id fuck up suicide and end up worse. Praying for death, injury, aids, or unwanted pregnancies for almost every pro athlete due to fucking me with bets lost bad.

Looking at using public train to do it. Doubt I'd cut my wrist or throat right. Nowhere to hang at home. Can't think of a better way ad I'd ruin som people's days on the way out.

Welcome to hell on earth fellow veteran.

 

[Abyssal]

I am tired how people default to saying suicide isn't a solution. When I talk about how I am struggling with others, it's ultimately comes down to them not knowing what I can do after I mention I cannot afford therapy. I never say it, but I sometimes wish I could say I will kill myself just to see what sort of solution they pull out of their ass. Then again that sounds like a good idea to go to a psych ward.

 

[Aim]

No and yess.

 

[Deleted member 65988]

The despicable nature of the human condition spawning sentient life was the Universe's greatest mistake. The other mistake is engaging the brain and thinking about it, which keeps me here in the loop instead of doing what I have to do pulling the trigger. I was on the up and up but sabotaged myself along the way. The mortality and finality of life doesn't give you any slack for do-overs. So I've got a perfectly good permanent solution to a permanent problem, just a matter of getting my ass off my bed and taking the leap. Anytime now.

The human condition is such an unwarranted burden

 

[Gonnerr]

Dont worry, there wont be a nuclear war , they have power , a lot of success and money , they dont want to die , just scare the other. They have SI too.

The only chance is if those nuclear launch code would end up in a crazy guy who wants to die and bring everybody with us , not likely to happen anytime soon.

Or maybe some guy will figure out how to blow up a supervolcano.

Terror suspect 'had dastardly plan to blow up Yellowstone Park'

Tunisian student Chiheb Esseghaier spoke of the 'death and destruction' an eruption of the massive supervolcano beneath the national park would cause in the U.S., the court heard.

www.dailymail.co.uk

 

[until death]

Suicide is the only correct answer to all questions

 

[PathtoDie]

I hope that you eventually find the freedom you search for, I certainly hate how it's so unnecessarily difficult to cease existing on our own terms, I wish existence came with an permanent offswitch where there is the option to just instantly cease existing in peace.

Exactly. That's what makes me sleepless. Why don't we have an off switch? Where's the failsafe? It's extremely disappointing to realize that I'd have to physically try to cease to exist instead of just tell my heart or my brain to stop functioning just by intending it...

 

[BornByGhosts]

it always hurts to see when people blame themselves because society is so fucked up
not only is it 99.9999% likely NOT their fault that led them here, the fact that they think it is their fault is a byproduct of hindsight bias

 

[notherenotnow]

Fuck life, i hate how people say shit like "oh, you have so much to live for" fuck off, no i dont

 

[silentnights56]

There's not enough nukes in the world to destroy reality. A long, long shot away

 

[divinemistress36]

Thank you for your service, you deserve peace