waiting93

waiting93

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I've been chronically suicidal for a while now . I have chronic pain and headaches that stop me from living a normal life . I can't work or go finish my schooling currently . My mom tells me push through my pain and I despise her for it because I know she wouldn't be able to handle it if she was in my shoes . After head specialists, neurologists, pain clinics, chiropractors, acupuncture I am fucking done trying . I know it will hurt my family but it is not selfish once I take my life . I take no joy from taking my life , I just want to stop my fucking suffering . My mom bullies me constantly telling me how I'm holding back my parents if life as they want to move away . Well fuck them I didn't ask to be chronically ill. They can move away once I'm dead and move on with their lives . Suicide should be accepted in this society , especially with unbearable suffering
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

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That really sounds so horrible what you have to endure and it's so insensitive to have your suffering invalidated like that, the reality is that it's inhumane to expect someone to delay their inevitable fate against their wishes, none of us are obligated to continue existing here anyway. I hope that you eventually find freedom from your suffering, it's insane to me seeing suicide as being worse than constant torture.
 
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HighFlight

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I have chronic pain and headaches that stop me from living a normal life
I am so sorry that you are suffering with headaches. As a parent of a child with chronic headaches, I still don't know the right thing to say, especially when you've tried so many treatments. I hope you find relief from your pain, and if that means ctb, that's a decision only you can make for yourself. It's not selfish to want to stop the pain. And while I'm sure your parents will be devastated to lose you, I feel it would be selfish on their part for not letting you go.

Please make sure you feel that you've explored all options before making a final decision. I pray you will find peace and be pain-free in whatever path you choose.
 
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locked*n*loaded

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I actually believe suicide to be quite selfish, since it's only about the suicidal person and delivering THEM from pain, anguish, torture, etc. But, I don't care if it's selfish. No one else has to live my life, so they don't know what it's like. My body, my life, my death, my business. No one elses.
 
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Praestat_Mori

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May 21, 2023
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To me the personal decision to CTB isn't selfish because it's for my own welfare. It may look "selfish" from the point of view of prolifers.
 
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todiefor

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Scrap that, nothing matters at all after all
Jun 24, 2023
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I agree with @locked*n*loaded, I think ctb is fundamentally an act you do for yourself, even if you are trying to not burden others etc you are doing it because you feel that you will be a burden, so in that sense it is selfish, but it's one of those rare things where you shouldn't care that it's selfish, because you have to do it for your own good/happiness, only you know your suffering and how long you have suffered. If someone cared for you genuinely and understood your suffering they would understand. Also, it is your body, your life. You make the decision that's right for you.
 
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EndJstifiesTheMeans

EndJstifiesTheMeans

Bad english, didn't go to school sorry
May 14, 2023
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Its selfish be a pro-life actually
 
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HighFlight

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You can successfully argue both sides of whether suicide is a selfish act. I think the real answer lies with "it depends..." But I would also argue that the answer ultimately doesn't matter. Personal choices are just that - Personal. As such, only the individual can decide to act, and whether they view it as selfish or not.

in @waiting93 situation, this could be viewed as an act of selflessness. I don't know the laws where assisted suicide is legal, but I would think this may be a situation where it applies ( total opinion - not based on facts that I know of. )

Regardless of selfish or not, my real concern is for @waiting93. I truly wish for your pain to end, ideally without having to ctb. Wishing you nothing but the best.
I've been chronically suicidal for a while now . I have chronic pain and headaches that stop me from living a normal life . I can't work or go finish my schooling currently . My mom tells me push through my pain and I despise her for it because I know she wouldn't be able to handle it if she was in my shoes . After head specialists, neurologists, pain clinics, chiropractors, acupuncture I am fucking done trying . I know it will hurt my family but it is not selfish once I take my life . I take no joy from taking my life , I just want to stop my fucking suffering . My mom bullies me constantly telling me how I'm holding back my parents if life as they want to move away . Well fuck them I didn't ask to be chronically ill. They can move away once I'm dead and move on with their lives . Suicide should be accepted in this society , especially with unbearable suffering
Curious to know if you've tried Aimovig - a monthly injectable for chronic migraines. I'm not a doctor, but this has helped my son.
 
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