Cherry Crumpet

Cherry Crumpet

Hiraeth
May 7, 2018
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Just knowing the option is there to say fuck it all and that I refuse to play this messed up game anymore. I can call it quits if I want.

Just having that there gives me a lot of relief. I don't know if I'll ever actually CTB... at least not while my Mom is around and my best friend might do the same thing if I did.. I couldn't do that to her.

But knowing it's there as an option is so calming to me.
 
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iguanah

Member
Dec 31, 2020
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i sort of agree how ever the possibility of failiure makes it less so
 
Frauw

Frauw

Nothing lasts
Oct 31, 2020
167
It's definately nice to have the option there, even if it can be kind of an unhealthy coping mechanism. It's the only thing that helps for me sadly.
 
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callofthevoid

callofthevoid

already gone
Jan 10, 2021
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Oh definitely. The option to CTB when life is too much or when you're ready. To have at least a control of an aspect of your life really helps.
 
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Keto

Student
Feb 8, 2020
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Although I don't get my SN yet, I believe having this option available to you is a great relieve. It should give you strength to take serious decisions to deal with your life and problems.
 
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Amumu

Amumu

Ctb - temporary solution for a permanent problem
Aug 29, 2020
2,624
I couldn't have put it better myself.

But a peaceful method is an even better safety net tbh.
 
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BandAddict

BandAddict

Specialist
Apr 3, 2019
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Yeah, holy shit. I think CTB has been my safety net since I was a kid even. Knowing that if I ever need it, or fuck up bad enough, I can just choose "game over", in a sense.
 
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WhatDoesTheFoxSay?

WhatDoesTheFoxSay?

Hold your head high, and your middle finger higher
Dec 25, 2020
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My all-time favourite quote:

"The thought of suicide is a great consolation: by means of it one gets through many a dark night."
– Friedrich Nietzsche

Nietzsche was ahead of his time.
 
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I screwed up

Waiting for the damn bus
Sep 11, 2019
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Yes its my safety net and way to cope. My biggest nightmare is failure in my attempt
 
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sourpink

Student
Aug 27, 2020
148
absolutely agreed.
the more solidly I become certain I can reliably fall back on ctb whenever need might more strongly arise is of great comfort and solace.
knowing I have an escape rope (metaphorically speaking, I'm referring to a video game thing, hanging isn't ideal to me), knowing I can leave on my time and on my terms is more calming than anything else.
and when I think about it in that frame of mind, it allows me to maintain the necessary calm to go about the process properly and evaluate any risk of possible failure.
somehow that brings me to a place where my ideation becomes less dull a roar and I can manage to kind of get through my days and try to feel better than absolutely awful, as I have in times when I tried to abolish ideation from my thinking. having a prepared plan to fall back on actually keeps me more stable than flailing around impulsively screaming and being risky and feeling out of control.
... allowing myself the right to choose for myself helps. who'd have thought? lol
 
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262653

Cluesome
Apr 5, 2018
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I don't see anything out of ordinary here. It helps to know that if you started eating some fruit or veggie, you know you can stop if you feel full, or nauseous from stumbling on a rotten or in some other way toxic part. It helps to know that if you ever decide to watch a film at a movie theater, you can exit anytime. (That's still a thing, right?)

Taking such a safety net from another person is akin to taking away the money and the sources of income from your relationship partner. Your partner becomes less independent, which means more reliant on you, which means you can dictate more one-sided terms while recieving a higher degree of compliance.

Take away the means of easy self-deliverance from a citizen, and suddenly the prospects of low wage, backbreaking, bullshit job become more appealing (less aversive) in comparison. Disbalance of power is a fertile soil for abusive relationship.
 
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