Story Suicide has never been more apparent

[sleepytourist]

My ex is back in the picture. He get my feelings in a mess when he's around. I've always been suicidal and so has he. I never had a date when I was ready. I'm ready now. I'll go at any cost. I'm so freaking ready.

 

[Deleted member 22624]

Welcome to SS, I see you're even newer than me. I'm sorry you feel so desperate to leave already. May I ask what your ex does to make you feel this way?? Is it just because you can't handle him being suicidal? Really sorry, *hugs*

 

[KleinerWolf]

Do you think his appearance somehow making things more difficult?
Would you find it more bearable if he isn't around?

 

[Lordsudbury]

We are curious for your cause. Would you be willing to elaborate about the relationship and your emotions in more depth for us? We're here to listen.

 

[sleepytourist]

He fails to listen to me and likes to criticize things like about my haircut(I'm a female with a buzz cut). It's like he's in his own world a lot of times. He complains about our lack of intimacy when I could care less because I'm asexual. Says he's less of a man because of his inability to have lots of sex. The feelings are one sided. I don't love him like he does me. I didn't choose to get back together today. He got high and kissed me. I hate his use of marijuana. He's using it as coping mechanism to deal with his past and possible ptsd. Like today, he got high and missed his therapy appointment! I was so angry. *Sigh* I'm just tired of his shenanigans. Tired of everything quite frankly. He says he's "doing better" since he's back on his physiatric medicine. But this is first time I've seen him in four months and he's still the same. I don't see any changes in him.

 

[Lordsudbury]

None of that sounds particularly healthy tbh

 

[sleepytourist]

None of that sounds particularly healthy tbh

I know. I just can't get rid of him it seems.