Method Suicide by brain poisoning

[miserable247]

I bought rosary peas a while back and they just arrived. Death should take 4 days max, so I have about 5 days left on Earth.

I feel so at peace, even tough it might be the most painful thing I'll ever have to deal with. The other 8 times I've attempted, it felt like I was hanging off a ledge but didnt want to let go. At 18, I dont think I'll have anything valuable to offer the world. I'm already going to fail my senior year, so this is just saving me and my family tons of disappointment and embarrassment. Recently, I realise that I've been doing things because I thought that was what I was supposed to be doing. And after intensive therapy, I realised that I dont know what I want and all the achievements I have from school are not even mine...they're theirs.

I dont know man, it's kinda like I'm trapped in my head and I cant break out. It sucks. I've been living as a puppet that other people can control to their liking.

Anyway, I have 2 exams left to write and on the afternoon of the last one, that's when I'll start my transition. I should be gone by the 27 of September.

This community has helped me a great deal with dealing with my demons and accepting the things I cant change. And this is one of them, i cant change the fact that i will never be what everyone else wants me to be...and that's okay.

 

[Lux]

I hope you find the peace that you're looking for.

 

[lowlander]

Safe passing. Sorry but can i ask some question? This method seem uncommon so im intrigued. The seed, is it red or white? also how much do you plan to consume? Thank you very much in advance

 

[wanttodie]

good luck

 

[Taki]

How did you obtain the seeds? DM me if you prefer.

 

[not-2-b-the-answer]

I wish you peace. Rest Well.

 

[yep]

I know your senior year must have been import to you, but I hope you at least had fun, and the grades didn't sap up all the goodness. Anyways I hope you find what your looking for, and if you change your mind, no judgement.

 

[Hopeindeath!]

I wish you peace.

 

[miserable247]

I hope you find the peace that you're looking for.

Thank you

Safe passing. Sorry but can i ask some question? This method seem uncommon so im intrigued. The seed, is it red or white? also how much do you plan to consume? Thank you very much in advance

The seeds are mostly red with a black tip, quite small seeds actually. I bought 100 of them online, so I plan on taking 10 a day until my body gives. 1 is fatal but I want to make sure this happens properly.

I wish you peace.

thank you

good luck

Thank you

How did you obtain the seeds? DM me if you prefer.

I bought them online from a seed shop. I live in South Africa and the Abrus precatorius plant is native here, so it was easy to get. You can buy them from other countries, I just don't know how long it will take to reach you because of the pandemic. I hope this helped, shoot more questions if you're unsure

I wish you peace. Rest Well.

thank you

I know your senior year must have been import to you, but I hope you at least had fun, and the grades didn't sap up all the goodness. Anyways I hope you find what your looking for, and if you change your mind, no judgement.

Thank you

 

[Red]

I bought rosary peas a while back and they just arrived. Death should take 4 days max, so I have about 5 days left on Earth.

I feel so at peace, even tough it might be the most painful thing I'll ever have to deal with. The other 8 times I've attempted, it felt like I was hanging off a ledge but didnt want to let go. At 18, I dont think I'll have anything valuable to offer the world. I'm already going to fail my senior year, so this is just saving me and my family tons of disappointment and embarrassment. Recently, I realise that I've been doing things because I thought that was what I was supposed to be doing. And after intensive therapy, I realised that I dont know what I want and all the achievements I have from school are not even mine...they're theirs.

I dont know man, it's kinda like I'm trapped in my head and I cant break out. It sucks. I've been living as a puppet that other people can control to their liking.

Anyway, I have 2 exams left to write and on the afternoon of the last one, that's when I'll start my transition. I should be gone by the 27 of September.

This community has helped me a great deal with dealing with my demons and accepting the things I cant change. And this is one of them, i cant change the fact that i will never be what everyone else wants me to be...and that's okay.

I'm sorry that you're at this point so early on on your life - you seem to have your mind set though and I hope that you find peace, whatever happens

Just one question, how are you preparing the seeds to ingest them? I assume that you're not going to swallow them whole, as they'll likely just pass through your body intact?

 

[miserable247]

I'm sorry that you're at this point so early on on your life - you seem to have your mind set though and I hope that you find peace, whatever happens

Just one question, how are you preparing the seeds to ingest them? I assume that you're not going to swallow them whole, as they'll likely just pass through your body intact?

Thank you I thought I wanted to chuck them in the blender, but the abrin inside is so deadly, I don't want to put anyone in danger. So I'm planning on chewing them

 

[miserable247]

Im not sure how or why the system changed the title to "brain poisoning". It's supposed to be "abrin poisoning"

 

[Niirvana]

Im not sure how or why the system changed the title to "brain poisoning". It's supposed to be "abrin poisoning"

What evidence is there of the effectiveness of this method?

 

[MariV]

peace and love from here. youre obviously an intelligent and sensitive soul, thats probably why you dont fit here. good luck

 

[miserable247]

What evidence is there of the effectiveness of this method?

From the articles and studies I've read online, it is currently the most toxic natural poison in the world, but I've only read about one case of someone dying from it, even after they were taken to the hospital. All other studies were about people that recovered because they took themselves to the hospital, so there is not much evidence out there. I have to trust the numbers i've got i guess

peace and love from here. youre obviously an intelligent and sensitive soul, thats probably why you dont fit here. good luck

Thank you

 

[Ghost2211]

This was a very interesting method choice. Have you eaten them yet? If so how are you feeling? Why on earth are these so easy to buy? Don't get me wrong awesome there's another option, but they don't seem to have any real use aside from poisoning.

 

[lowlander]

This was a very interesting method choice. Have you eaten them yet? If so how are you feeling? Why on earth are these so easy to buy? Don't get me wrong awesome there's another option, but they don't seem to have any real use aside from poisoning.

People make beads/bracelet out of them, kids play with them, and the leaves apparently have been used in traditional medicine.
I'm also surprised that this and several other poisonous plant just grow by the roadside in my area yet almost 0 case of intentional use

 

[nitroautnz]

For what i read it can be a very painful way to die and long too, apparently no antidote to abrin, so in hospital its only for managing the symptoms.
Hope you will not suffer for very long before you get peace