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Canon1
Student
- Dec 2, 2019
- 184
Hi there!
Right now I feel strongly suicidal. My problem is that I had an eye disease that made my eye structure look different than normally eyes and I feel very strange when people look into my eyes or talking with me. It looks like I had blue contacts without a real structure in but they are real this way. The problem is that I could do a surgery to make it look a little more natural but in the end this changed structure will remain. It makes me really sad and depressed and I can't stop thinking of it 24/7. Moreover I am every day anxious to go to work because people there talk with me. I can wear glasses to hide it a bit but that doesn't make me happy. I have sn and I am thinking of taking it in the next time because at this point life has become a real struggle for me. I am also very depressed and struggle with social anxiety. I know nobody can help me but I just wanted to say it. I feel like an outsider or alien. The strange thing is that people tell me all the time what beautiful eyes I have. I feel so wrong.
Right now I feel strongly suicidal. My problem is that I had an eye disease that made my eye structure look different than normally eyes and I feel very strange when people look into my eyes or talking with me. It looks like I had blue contacts without a real structure in but they are real this way. The problem is that I could do a surgery to make it look a little more natural but in the end this changed structure will remain. It makes me really sad and depressed and I can't stop thinking of it 24/7. Moreover I am every day anxious to go to work because people there talk with me. I can wear glasses to hide it a bit but that doesn't make me happy. I have sn and I am thinking of taking it in the next time because at this point life has become a real struggle for me. I am also very depressed and struggle with social anxiety. I know nobody can help me but I just wanted to say it. I feel like an outsider or alien. The strange thing is that people tell me all the time what beautiful eyes I have. I feel so wrong.