I'm having suicidal thoughts now, I feel anxious and distressed, I don't know what to do.
This can help with anxiety:
5: Acknowledge
FIVE things you see around you. It could be a pen, a spot on the ceiling, anything in your surroundings.
4: Acknowledge
FOUR things you can touch around you. It could be your hair, a pillow, or the ground under your feet.
3: Acknowledge
THREE things you hear. This could be any external sound. If you can hear your belly rumbling that counts! Focus on things you can hear outside of your body.
2: Acknowledge
TWO things you can smell. Maybe you are in your office and smell pencil, or maybe you are in your bedroom and smell a pillow. If you need to take a brief walk to find a scent you could smell soap in your bathroom, or nature outside.
1: Acknowledge
ONE thing you can taste. What does the inside of your mouth taste like—gum, coffee, or the sandwich from lunch?
As for depression stay as social as you can and do as any things that bring you joy as possible. Whats your favorite food? show? hobby? make time for those