Suicidal thoughts,
They come and go,
I reap what I sow,
For my sins,
They create me,
But they destroy me,
For I am broken,
There are no tokens,
For this emptiness,
It is not loneliness,
That bothers me,
What is smothering me?
For if God does exist,
Please forgive me,
For everything that I've done,
I don't know why I exist,
I just want peace of mind,
For eternity,
To end this misery,
Send me away from all of this,
Back to Annihilation,
To end this devastation,
I don't want to be,
Just let me go,
Ideally peacefully,
Or in a quick agony,
From a shotgun,
And some ammo,
To the back of my skull,
I would take it gladly,
Just make sure you kill me,
Out of good measure,
Shoot me five times,
In the skull and in the heart,
For it is broken,
There are no tokens,
Even my virtues,
They don't last long,
But death is final,
It is peaceful, but also fearful,
Because I don't understand,
The things you want,
Will not be,
They may last temporarily,
But just kill me,
Even if I regret it,
Within the presence,
Or the past or the future,
For I have no idea about,
My future if I have,
I walk around and talk to myself,
I don't understand why that bothers mom,
For she doesn't understand why I do that,
I am self conscious about that ability or disability,
For if you want to stop talking to myself and walking then just kill me I take it gladly.
I sing this song,
For however long,
Just take me away,
From this world and these people,
End my misery.
They come and go,
I reap what I sow,
For my sins,
They create me,
But they destroy me,
For I am broken,
There are no tokens,
For this emptiness,
It is not loneliness,
That bothers me,
What is smothering me?
For if God does exist,
Please forgive me,
For everything that I've done,
I don't know why I exist,
I just want peace of mind,
For eternity,
To end this misery,
Send me away from all of this,
Back to Annihilation,
To end this devastation,
I don't want to be,
Just let me go,
Ideally peacefully,
Or in a quick agony,
From a shotgun,
And some ammo,
To the back of my skull,
I would take it gladly,
Just make sure you kill me,
Out of good measure,
Shoot me five times,
In the skull and in the heart,
For it is broken,
There are no tokens,
Even my virtues,
They don't last long,
But death is final,
It is peaceful, but also fearful,
Because I don't understand,
The things you want,
Will not be,
They may last temporarily,
But just kill me,
Even if I regret it,
Within the presence,
Or the past or the future,
For I have no idea about,
My future if I have,
I walk around and talk to myself,
I don't understand why that bothers mom,
For she doesn't understand why I do that,
I am self conscious about that ability or disability,
For if you want to stop talking to myself and walking then just kill me I take it gladly.
I sing this song,
For however long,
Just take me away,
From this world and these people,
End my misery.
