phoenixx
Experienced
- Apr 8, 2019
- 261
For the first time in a long time I am not suicidal. I don't know what has happened or what has changed but I am currently not experiencing those thoughts. Of course, it is probably a good thing. I am not wanting to disappear or end things. I am not looking for a way out. Something has changed over the past week and like I said, I don't know what it is, but I am feeling a little more optimistic which is a very strange feeling since I've spent the last few years not knowing how long I'd be alive. I'm also finding that I don't want to hurt myself, I'm not getting the urges to self harm which is also a very strange for me. I know this isn't going to last though, I know that for sure. It never does. And I know that I will still eventually ctb, even if it's many many years into the future.
Suicidal or not, I still find myself coming to SS because I enjoy being apart of this community and talking to other people. So even though I don't feel bad right now, I'm still going to stay here because this is the one community that understands me (thats if it's okay to stay of course).
Suicidal or not, I still find myself coming to SS because I enjoy being apart of this community and talking to other people. So even though I don't feel bad right now, I'm still going to stay here because this is the one community that understands me (thats if it's okay to stay of course).
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