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WornOutLife
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- Mar 22, 2020
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Since last week, I've been experiencing a suicidal laziness.
I just don't feel like doing anything but unfortunately, I have lots of stuff to do because I gotta study and also I've got lots of new students. I even work on Saturdays. Mind you! I love my job but I'm just like "Damn, what about not doing anything and just spending my time in bed thinking about ctb?"
I guess I'm scared of becoming a depressed NEET again because I know if I give up now, I won't recover and the only options left will be to ctb for real or spend the rest of my days in a psych ward.
Anybody else experiencing a suicidal laziness? I guess it's just depression in the end but damn, I bet you understand this feeling of not wanting do anything but wasting your time in bed watching series, anime, etc.
Anyway, just venting a bit here.
Thanks for reading me, as usual. =)
I just don't feel like doing anything but unfortunately, I have lots of stuff to do because I gotta study and also I've got lots of new students. I even work on Saturdays. Mind you! I love my job but I'm just like "Damn, what about not doing anything and just spending my time in bed thinking about ctb?"
I guess I'm scared of becoming a depressed NEET again because I know if I give up now, I won't recover and the only options left will be to ctb for real or spend the rest of my days in a psych ward.
Anybody else experiencing a suicidal laziness? I guess it's just depression in the end but damn, I bet you understand this feeling of not wanting do anything but wasting your time in bed watching series, anime, etc.
Anyway, just venting a bit here.
Thanks for reading me, as usual. =)