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somniummalum
Student
- Jul 3, 2020
- 119
Hello guys,
I've been taking a break from this site since some things in my life changed, which gave me some power to hang in there.
Well, lifes been good to me. I have met this cool girl, who is my girlfriend now. Been to some job interviews, maybe I have a chance at working as a barista.
Still, suicidal thoughts started creep up on me slowly. I feel like all my life suicide has never really left my mind, no matter how good I felt, no matter what happens in my life.
Now I'm at a point where I think about it everyday, even when she's next to me, cuddling with me.
It just doesn't leave me, I truly don't want to be part of this world, I never wanted to.
Do any of you have similar experiences with being suicidal?
I've been taking a break from this site since some things in my life changed, which gave me some power to hang in there.
Well, lifes been good to me. I have met this cool girl, who is my girlfriend now. Been to some job interviews, maybe I have a chance at working as a barista.
Still, suicidal thoughts started creep up on me slowly. I feel like all my life suicide has never really left my mind, no matter how good I felt, no matter what happens in my life.
Now I'm at a point where I think about it everyday, even when she's next to me, cuddling with me.
It just doesn't leave me, I truly don't want to be part of this world, I never wanted to.
Do any of you have similar experiences with being suicidal?