Its just weird thinking about ceasing to exist literally forever, ive never even kissed anyone, never went to the beach, never swam, never went to college, i wouldnt do those things anyway since im just a walking corpse now, just a sad zombie, i just lay in bed all day long, theres no hope for me, i need to die, but i just wish there was an after life, or that i could reincarnate and have a nice life
FarAcrossTheWater
Experienced
- Sep 4, 2020
- 235
ikadasui
Arcanist
- May 29, 2018
- 466
I really relate with this. Reincarnation but with the experinces I've had so I can steer clear of the shit that ruined this life
If it's any consolation, most humans never got to experience a lot of joy. They lived and died in their tribes, hunting for food, dying painfully of malaria at 21 after watching their brothers and sisters die of sepsis.
clueless2dayor2morro
Member
- Feb 19, 2021
- 41
hey there. i don't think you're missing much out with the college experience--it's not really worth the debt. all of these things can be good experiences to have, but experiences don't really mean much or count for much alone. i don't know what your health condition or your location is, but i always try to stave off ctb with setting a date with some goals in mind. somethings just aren't realistically possible for everyone and that's ok.
its never too late to experience a first kiss--mine wasn't that great and honestly it's not that magical especially when the person you're kissing has deadskin sloughing off onto ur lips lol but that shouldn't deter you from kissing people.
but honestly, don't let FOMO get you down. somethings are worth waiting for to experience and sometimes its too painful to play the waiting game.
i definitely vote at least going to the beach--a warm one on the east coast or in the south (if you are in the continental US) or taking yourself to someplace nice before your last hurrah. if not a beach, maybe a lake or somewhere by a river and wading in the waters that's close by.
sometimes i hope for reincarnation too, another chance at things, even though i was raised to not believe in reincarnation. but sometimes i kind of hope it doesn't so i don't have to go through this bs again.
its never too late to experience a first kiss--mine wasn't that great and honestly it's not that magical especially when the person you're kissing has deadskin sloughing off onto ur lips lol but that shouldn't deter you from kissing people.
but honestly, don't let FOMO get you down. somethings are worth waiting for to experience and sometimes its too painful to play the waiting game.
i definitely vote at least going to the beach--a warm one on the east coast or in the south (if you are in the continental US) or taking yourself to someplace nice before your last hurrah. if not a beach, maybe a lake or somewhere by a river and wading in the waters that's close by.
sometimes i hope for reincarnation too, another chance at things, even though i was raised to not believe in reincarnation. but sometimes i kind of hope it doesn't so i don't have to go through this bs again.
