Sucide letter thoughts please

[asifkhanny12345]

First of all i cant put into words how sorry i am to do this and how gulity i feel for it. The purpose of this note is not to gain sympathy and have people feel sorry for me in anyway. I just want to tell my story so that hopefully people can understand. Understand what its like liveing with mental health issues, constant sucidal thoughts and why it is that i have decided to take my own life . Truth is ive never been happy and i truly belive i never will be. Mentally its tough to cope its got to a point where i feel am on the verge of bursting into tears every single day but i can hardly cry anymore. People will say am selfish and say how could i do this and i agree , i know it is and wish more than anything i didnt feel this way but i do im tired ive been fighting for 8 years and picked my self out of many deep holes but i just want the pain to be over now.

thank people that had helped me and go on to say had troubles through my life. health was a factor and certain other things had upset me

I take full responsibility for my actions, to stress there is nothing they could have said or done to change my mind, my life, my rules, my decision and to stress this one act does not wipe out the good I have done.

Nobody can change my mind because i felt like i couldnt reach out so resort to this i have been let down and abused by mental health services They have caused me to overthink stuff they have caused me to react in a iprotiate way towards them due to me feeling like they have let me down they haven't helped me when I have needed it they have just used things in the past to get to me I truly feel like I have cried out for help but had nothing back except abuse and disappointment

 

[watereyes]

Hi mate,

In my opinion, you shouldn't worry about a suicide letter. The best way to make people understand is by staying alive, and well.. explaining what you're going through, no matter how tough it is. If you want to kill yourself because you want someone to understand what you're feeling, its probably not going to work. They will know you were in pain, and they will be confused: if they didn't understand you alive, they aren't going to understand you dead.
If you want them to understand, don't die. I'm not here to change your mind, I'm just giving you my opinion.

Hope that helps.

 

[PhilosOfDoom]

The best way to judge a note is to have your goals, e.g 1. no blame, 2. blame a cause 3. what happened during recovery 4. backstory, etc. You do a. minimize the blame b. mention a factor, but not the full cause for mental struggle c. say what happened during recovery. Depending on how extensive you mean "story" to be, then you could flesh out the note a bit more, giving insight as to how it was growing up, or anything else.

Do you want to share the context of this, or is it personal? If this is to some friends, then this does very well, parents perhaps. A lot of people debate the necessity of a note, which is fair. The people you are sharing the note to probably already know about a lot of your past, but for some it brings comfort, but the entire thing is still a debate. By the way, if you are sending it in this format, then you may want to make sure you use the words you want to use, and the such. Good luck on what you choose.

 

[Mm80]

First of all i cant put into words how sorry i am to do this and how gulity i feel for it. The purpose of this note is not to gain sympathy and have people feel sorry for me in anyway. I just want to tell my story so that hopefully people can understand. Understand what its like liveing with mental health issues, constant sucidal thoughts and why it is that i have decided to take my own life . Truth is ive never been happy and i truly belive i never will be. Mentally its tough to cope its got to a point where i feel am on the verge of bursting into tears every single day but i can hardly cry anymore. People will say am selfish and say how could i do this and i agree , i know it is and wish more than anything i didnt feel this way but i do im tired ive been fighting for 8 years and picked my self out of many deep holes but i just want the pain to be over now.

thank people that had helped me and go on to say had troubles through my life. health was a factor and certain other things had upset me

I take full responsibility for my actions, to stress there is nothing they could have said or done to change my mind, my life, my rules, my decision and to stress this one act does not wipe out the good I have done.

Nobody can change my mind because i felt like i couldnt reach out so resort to this i have been let down and abused by mental health services They have caused me to overthink stuff they have caused me to react in a iprotiate way towards them due to me feeling like they have let me down they haven't helped me when I have needed it they have just used things in the past to get to me I truly feel like I have cried out for help but had nothing back except abuse and disappointment

Ive spoke to you a few times brother. Reading your story is saddening and i can relate. You seem to have plwnty of insight, so please let us know your thoughts/dilemmas regards a note and we will try to help. I agree with watereyes that if you still have any HOPE of anyone understanding, you should maybe carry on but this is very personal.

Thanks